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[am_i_stoned]

This time of year..last year
was probably the most roughest and fucked up time of my life
memories come back to haunt me
exspecially after watching sober house
i just feel i need to vent the memories
though they're wrong
though they might make me look bad
i have always been honest..with my thoughts

no particular order....

jon giving me herion
watching whitney puke off harion
blowing cocain with whitney
spending large amounts of money
doing e then going to a strip club
me and jons first date
strippp club
blowing oxycotton with jon
it wasss so fucked up
im so glad i learned
i just wish i didn't have to learn the hard way
i have been so lucky through this experience
i didn't lose my job die...
i did lose a boyfriend to drugs
one a really cared about
all the signs i was oblivous too at the moment but i learned
if a guy gets u a gift card he doesn't want to get to know u

i dont want to remeber any more

ugh