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[am_i_stoned]

confession numero uno
history repeats itself
im fucken stupid

story is..im dating this guy
i really should chill he's not bad
but..ive been down this road before..
and ive worked in a strip club
i know how guys minds work
i know how to work with them.
i used to take advantage of assholes.
but i dont want to do that anymore..
im looking for a best friend in a boyfriend
somebody who calls me talks to me listens to me
someone who would give me a flower rather than a sexy outfit or a bottle of lube
i mean come on..wtf..
serously im not gonna have sex with u if u dont love me
or take the time to talk to me..
im so fucken aggravated
its not cute love..
its like ignorant lets have crazy sex..i love sex kind of love
fuck that..fuck guys..

i went down this road with last dick head..
its fun for a moment. a moment of lust.
then its just blah..
honestly i wish i was smart enough to date the good guys that are right in my face

so i dunno what to do.