Frustrated
So, I’m incredibly frustrated at the moment. Okay, I know that I’m probably going to start in the middle of the story, but I need to vent. Anyway, basically, my application for honours needs to be handed in tomorrow, and I have to write a half page proposal. I don’t think it is critically important, but they just want to know that I have a vague idea of what I’m going to be doing. Anyway, my supervisor wants me to have a go, just to see how much I understand. Considering we only sat down and talked about it for a half hour or so, I reckon that’s a bit of a tough call, but anyway, I'll have a shot. So, I came home a little early, but I did start a bit early too, and was just going to sit down and do it. I’ve been procrastinating for a few days now, and I thought if I just sat down and did it, then that would do. However, I can’t, for some insane reason, get into my email account to get the paper on which the whole thing is pretty much based. So, I can’t start writing now, but I don’t know if that is just me trying to procrastinate. Argh! I guess I’ll have another go now.
Well, it looks like it still isn’t going to load, so I guess I’ll keep writing. Anyway, as is probably evident, I started my summer scholarship on Monday. So far I’ve haven’t actually done much, mainly watched what other people have done. Today and yesterday I observed something called an ICS, which apparently will do a lot of next year. It’s a little bit weird, because I don’t actually have a set aim, I’m basically trying to get used to the lab and working out where everything is and things, so I don’t have set things to do. That’s a little hard to get used to, because I’m a fairly structured kind of person.
Oh, yay, my email just opened. So, I’m going to try and write this thing up, and I’ll finish this later.
Alright, I’ve written a paragraph, and hit a bit of a wall, so I think I’ll leave it for a little while before I go on with it. The problem is, I think I know the background stuff well enough, but when it gets down to what I’ll actually be doing, well, I’m a little vaguer on that. Anyway, I digress. What was I talking about? Oh, that’s right, getting used to the lab. As I said, it’s a little hard to get used to the informality of it. I’ve always worked somewhere where you have a set start and end time, but here it’s just come when you want, and leave when you are done. You take as long off as you need to eat lunch. I think in time I’ll come to really love it. Everyone is super nice, and are willing to let me look over there shoulder and will answer all my stupid questions. I’m not used to working all day though, so by the time I get home I’m usually pretty buggered. I don’t think I’ve slept this well in years.
I went back to writing my proposal again. It wasn’t really hugely successful, but I’ll have another go in the morning. Anyway, I don’t really have much else to write about … well, that’s wrong, but honestly, I can’t really think straight, so I think I’ll just wait and write it all out properly later.