I shouldn't be alone this late at night..
With Jay out of town tonight (thanks goes to my boss for fucking me out of the time to go with him, I won't be forgetting this anytime soon), I'm left to a bottle of whiskey and a blank piece of paper. Idly, I let my mind wander as the music played, the alcohol dancing in my thoughts. This is what came forth. Perhaps it make no sense to anyone else, but he and I will know... (By the way, song is "No Dream Can Heal A Broken Heart" by Sonata Arctica. Look it up, listen to it. Now!)
My dream, it seems, fails to see the mornings
My one and only aim
I hear you breathe, I'm not alone in the darkness
I feel something on my lips I should not
Silver eyes opening to the darkness, the exhale of a held breath, the silent wetness of a single tear. Reaching up, she brushes the drop away, amazed and entranced that she can still cry at all. After many years, would not the tears dry up? Again, the exhale of breath, softly filtering in, the sound of a heart beat, the warmth of another. Rising gently, she looks beside her, another drop running down her cheek, the sight of golden hair and broad shoulders making her shiver and feel feverish...
One, too many poison kisses
And I'm drowning in your deepest see
I found my destiny, something I'm here for
I'm knocking on my heaven's door
Delirious. Euphoric. Hands on her skin, arms holding her close, breath on the back of her neck. For a moment of his pleasure, she would give her soul. Gladly she could pass from this life to oblivion if its last seconds would be spent like this, embraced and held. Was this everything she searched for? Soft lips on her shoulder, the promise of eternal love whispered in her ear...
One day we will run out of tomorrows
And yesterday's become the stuff our dreams are made of
Until today, I lived in the shadow world
Now heart is speaking, brain's defeated
Independent thought deleted...
Dizzy. Arms that held her gently now turning to a choking prison. Clawing and screaming, she howls out her pain and suffering, knowing no god would ever answer her cries. Why would they, but in her misery she was addicted. Sickened she realizes her pleas are not of release, but a pathetic begging for more. Let go and surrender, give it all away...
One too many poisoned kisses...
And I'm drowning in your deepest sea
I found my destiny, something I'm here for...
I'm knockin' on my heaven's door.
And the map to find my sleeping wishes
Is hidden where I cannot see
When I'm awake, I need your poison kisses
To fall back in a living dream...
Gasping, silver eyes wide in the darkness, nails clenched tightly in the covers. Dreams and waking, all a tangle sheets and clothing. What was real, what was sleeping? Broad shoulders and golden hair, the warmth of another. Faintly remembered screams and shivers of forbidden desires. Hers or His? Oh gods, did she taint everything she touched. Golden eyes opening, meeting her silver, matched yet so different in the dark..
"Why do you fear to long for my love, please be strong.
If your heart can hear a song, you can't go wrong...
So repose your trust in me, save this love, live and see
If the life beyond this dream is what you seek..."
"Fill your deepest wishes,
Come take my poison kisses
Life is too short, this golden hour lasts for a lifetime..."
Her lips soft on his, cutting off any questions he might have. Both can feel it, a change falling over them. Her darkness and his light. As they embrace, the two opposites meet, a lingering mark left on both. How can the pure touch the corrputed and not come away scarred? How can the dark look into the light and not realize its emptiness? She was losing who she was, becoming more like him, but did that mean..
Give me your poison kiss,
Now, come night, I need my sleeping wish
Help me dream again, somehow kiss me now
His touch is colder, yet hungry. Desire in his breath, his words once warm honey, now wash over her like iced water. A shiver down her back, the twisting in her heart. Silver fading to grey, grey brightening to light. Gold dimming down to cold silver, looking back at each other, seeing what they once were. How could she destroy him?! Dear gods, what had she done. His eyes now of silver filled with amusement, watching her mourn, watching her turn and beg, meeting her eyes of gold.
With your poisoned lips
Oh, come night, I want my missing wish
Help me get one kiss, somehow
Hold me now
No dream can heal a broken heart...
When we're apart...
...On the sea of wishes
My dream that no one misses
Tears me apart, always, somehow
Goodbye love...
Golden eyes wide in the dark, the soft wetness of a single tear. Reaching out to touch his golden hair, shivering at the silver stare. Softly, words whispered, his lips pulled back in a smirk. One does not embrace the light and come away blind. Pulling close for a kiss, she gasps, letting go to him. The exhale of her breath, the drum of their hearts. Poison, corruption, salvation and damnation. The tangle of sheets and the muttered prayer. Silver and gold..
My dream, it seems, fails to see the mornings
My one and only aim
I hear you breathe, I'm not alone in the darkness
I feel something on my lips I should not
Silver eyes opening to the darkness, the exhale of a held breath, the silent wetness of a single tear. Reaching up, she brushes the drop away, amazed and entranced that she can still cry at all. After many years, would not the tears dry up? Again, the exhale of breath, softly filtering in, the sound of a heart beat, the warmth of another. Rising gently, she looks beside her, another drop running down her cheek, the sight of golden hair and broad shoulders making her shiver and feel feverish...
One, too many poison kisses
And I'm drowning in your deepest see
I found my destiny, something I'm here for
I'm knocking on my heaven's door
Delirious. Euphoric. Hands on her skin, arms holding her close, breath on the back of her neck. For a moment of his pleasure, she would give her soul. Gladly she could pass from this life to oblivion if its last seconds would be spent like this, embraced and held. Was this everything she searched for? Soft lips on her shoulder, the promise of eternal love whispered in her ear...
One day we will run out of tomorrows
And yesterday's become the stuff our dreams are made of
Until today, I lived in the shadow world
Now heart is speaking, brain's defeated
Independent thought deleted...
Dizzy. Arms that held her gently now turning to a choking prison. Clawing and screaming, she howls out her pain and suffering, knowing no god would ever answer her cries. Why would they, but in her misery she was addicted. Sickened she realizes her pleas are not of release, but a pathetic begging for more. Let go and surrender, give it all away...
One too many poisoned kisses...
And I'm drowning in your deepest sea
I found my destiny, something I'm here for...
I'm knockin' on my heaven's door.
And the map to find my sleeping wishes
Is hidden where I cannot see
When I'm awake, I need your poison kisses
To fall back in a living dream...
Gasping, silver eyes wide in the darkness, nails clenched tightly in the covers. Dreams and waking, all a tangle sheets and clothing. What was real, what was sleeping? Broad shoulders and golden hair, the warmth of another. Faintly remembered screams and shivers of forbidden desires. Hers or His? Oh gods, did she taint everything she touched. Golden eyes opening, meeting her silver, matched yet so different in the dark..
"Why do you fear to long for my love, please be strong.
If your heart can hear a song, you can't go wrong...
So repose your trust in me, save this love, live and see
If the life beyond this dream is what you seek..."
"Fill your deepest wishes,
Come take my poison kisses
Life is too short, this golden hour lasts for a lifetime..."
Her lips soft on his, cutting off any questions he might have. Both can feel it, a change falling over them. Her darkness and his light. As they embrace, the two opposites meet, a lingering mark left on both. How can the pure touch the corrputed and not come away scarred? How can the dark look into the light and not realize its emptiness? She was losing who she was, becoming more like him, but did that mean..
Give me your poison kiss,
Now, come night, I need my sleeping wish
Help me dream again, somehow kiss me now
His touch is colder, yet hungry. Desire in his breath, his words once warm honey, now wash over her like iced water. A shiver down her back, the twisting in her heart. Silver fading to grey, grey brightening to light. Gold dimming down to cold silver, looking back at each other, seeing what they once were. How could she destroy him?! Dear gods, what had she done. His eyes now of silver filled with amusement, watching her mourn, watching her turn and beg, meeting her eyes of gold.
With your poisoned lips
Oh, come night, I want my missing wish
Help me get one kiss, somehow
Hold me now
No dream can heal a broken heart...
When we're apart...
...On the sea of wishes
My dream that no one misses
Tears me apart, always, somehow
Goodbye love...
Golden eyes wide in the dark, the soft wetness of a single tear. Reaching out to touch his golden hair, shivering at the silver stare. Softly, words whispered, his lips pulled back in a smirk. One does not embrace the light and come away blind. Pulling close for a kiss, she gasps, letting go to him. The exhale of her breath, the drum of their hearts. Poison, corruption, salvation and damnation. The tangle of sheets and the muttered prayer. Silver and gold..