it ends tonight

[alyyysha]

i don't hate him. i'm not angry or upset with him. i'm a little sad, a little hurt, a little embarrassed. but i know i can stop caring now, i can stop reserving that part of my heart for him, i can stop holding onto memories that won't relive themselves. i'm not even going to lie to myself and think about it like HE lost ME. i'm not going to build this up or give it any more time and attention. i promised myself after this, it would be the last time. and so it is.

goodbye. i think you were already gone by the time i caught up to you.