rebuilding a burt bridge from ashes
today i talked to christina and it was the first time we really talked in about 3 years. i mean we hung out all summer and stuff and i see her still but its the first convo we really both talked things out in. iv had so many things botteled up inside of me for 3 yrs its unhealhty, especially because they all pretain to one person. but today some of that was finally released, and i feel releaved. its not that i feel good or happy about it, because i mean if i just spent an entire fone convo crying im not happy, but i felt releaved that some of that stuff has been released to the person that it was all about. we have a really long way to go before things work like they used to, if they ever get to b like that again....but at least we r both on the same page about what happend and how it made us feel. before tonight i had no idea that she still carries it around with her like i do, but now i see that and im glad to know im not the only one. knowing im not the weak one and that it not only still only hurts me is what i needed to know. maybe now things will turn for the better, im praying that they will, because i could really use that friendship again.