sick as a motha fuckahhh

[alyssepatrice]

dood. so sick. of being sick.
and of blisters that are on my tonsils. that dont belong there. who'se ever heard of blisters on your tonsils???? eww. thats just wrong on so many different levels. like. ew.

and the boyfriend is pissing me off.
he's telling me he loves me. and i dont like it.
not at all.
im not mature enough for this relationship.
im thinking about ending it.
but he likes me so much.
like a lot so much.
and i like him a lot
and this is good
but i need to grow up.
but if i tell him i need to take a break he's going to go ballistic and no one will be happy.

and ryan wants to date me.
which is unusual because before he just wanted to sleep with me (which didnt happen, by the way)
and doug wants to date me.
which is unusual because he doesnt even know me.
whyyyyyyyyy does everyone want to date me when i have a boyfriend? this is just making me think that it would be good for john and i to break up.
so that i can live my life.
or should i just cheat on him? nooooo. that would be horrible to the maxx.
and i would feel liek a sluuuttttttt.

whyy does this happen to me.why.