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Well, last night was fun too. We went to Cindys party. Im def gonna start slowing it down. I start school this monday. I hung out alot with jesse last night. And miss. forchy was totally living it up with a certain someone, yaaay!! Good stuff will come out of last night for you my dear! But ME on the other hand.. good stuff might be able to come out of it.. but i realized i dont want it too. Heres what happened in a nut shell cuz the story really doesnt even deserved any detail. The whole night jesse kept coming over to me and giving me hugs and stuff. He's a cute kid, lol. Anyway, it was getting really late and who ever was left at the party was kinda just chillin in a circle and talking. All of the sudden, jesse just gets up and was like "im leavin". It was weird, he like pushed me off him... but then told me to follow him. He didnt even say goodbye to any od his friends... as i was sobering up, i realized how dicky that was. Soo anyway, I followed him out front. People were like starring at us so he's like... "can we go talk in my car?" So i was like, "yeah, sure, why not" I prob shoulda let him leave. But the main reason i followed him was cuz i didnt want him driving yet... and if sitting in his car for 2 hours meant him being safe... i'd do it in a heartbeat. Now, keep in mind it was like 2:00ish and we needed to be home by 4. I had noo clue how much time had pased cuz i didnt take my bag with my phone plus he had no clock in his car. To make a long story short, it wound up being 3:55 real fast and everyone was starting to worry about where i was cuz i only though i was gonna be gone for like 10 min. sal wound up finding the car so it was all good. The thing that really got to me was when forch started crying when she saw me. It wasnt that she was mad or upset... she was just really glad to see me cuz she was so worried. I could only imagine how she was feeling. People were planted ideas in her head like i drove off drunk somewhere with him. I would NEVER let that happen. It looked SOO bad though. I'm not that kind of girl and Forchy says everyone knew that. I hope so, cuz nothing really happend. Im not gonna lie, I did say and do one little thing that (for the first time in my entire life)i regret a little. For godsakes, half the time he sat there singing sublime to me...lol, it was cute. But heres the thing...everything happens for a reason, right? So now, not that i had any intension on persuing jesse but if i did, i def dont anymore. Im just mad at myself for not being more responsible and firm when i told him i needed to go check the time. He kept being like "nahh, you got plenty of time". The more i think about that... it's just really annoying. He said he's gonna call me today. But to tell ya the truth, I dont know if i'll pick up. I guess we'll see what happens. It was just one emotional night for me and forch. She was soo worried about me. I couldnt stop crying once i relaized that i had even the littlest part in why she was upset. She kept telling me to stop uz the only reason why she started crying was c/b she was just sooo happy to see that i was ok. I really love her to death. So yeah, i have a bad feeling about jesse. So we'll see what happens. I need to go occupy myslef so i dont dwell anything =/
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