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I can't believe this year is over. It went so fast and that scares me because it is only going to get faster. It was an incredible year. Probably the best year ever. I think that I say that every year but I guess that is a good thing. Every year should be better than the last.
Saying goodbye was so much harder than I ever thought it would be. It just kept hitting me that I would never live with all those people again. All the stupid little things that made me laugh and all the dumb things we did to fill the time when we were bored with nothing to do in F-burg are what made this year so good. I know that I will see everyone again but it is just sad that we will never all live together like that again. We were all so different but somehow we made our little family. I think that is what helped me grow up so much this year. I don't know if I have changed outwardly but somewhere in the last 8 months I found some confidence. I think that is the other reason it was so hard to leave. I can give credit to these people for helping me grow up and it is so hard to let go. I didn't know how upset I was going to be until I actually had to walk out of my room and look at the emptiness and know that it was really over.
I know it is going to be a great summer. I am going to be sad for a little while and I get to be sad because I found some pretty great friends this year. I have some pretty great friends at home, too, so I know I will be all right. I guess I am lucky to have people I care about in both places that I can call home. It is the kind of lucky that you pay for when it is time to say goodbye to anyone but I guess it is a small price to pay.
I feel like we are getting older faster and faster and I want it to slow down. Let's jut be kids again this summer.
Saying goodbye was so much harder than I ever thought it would be. It just kept hitting me that I would never live with all those people again. All the stupid little things that made me laugh and all the dumb things we did to fill the time when we were bored with nothing to do in F-burg are what made this year so good. I know that I will see everyone again but it is just sad that we will never all live together like that again. We were all so different but somehow we made our little family. I think that is what helped me grow up so much this year. I don't know if I have changed outwardly but somewhere in the last 8 months I found some confidence. I think that is the other reason it was so hard to leave. I can give credit to these people for helping me grow up and it is so hard to let go. I didn't know how upset I was going to be until I actually had to walk out of my room and look at the emptiness and know that it was really over.
I know it is going to be a great summer. I am going to be sad for a little while and I get to be sad because I found some pretty great friends this year. I have some pretty great friends at home, too, so I know I will be all right. I guess I am lucky to have people I care about in both places that I can call home. It is the kind of lucky that you pay for when it is time to say goodbye to anyone but I guess it is a small price to pay.
I feel like we are getting older faster and faster and I want it to slow down. Let's jut be kids again this summer.