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On Christmas Eve, I was driving my brothers back from midnight mass and one of them commented that we better not get pulled over because it was after curfew. The other one said that it didn't matter because we were with an adult. I started to say no, it was just us, but then I realized that I was the adult they were talking about. Weird.
My mom told me I am getting old and I am going to start to see the years. Weirder.
I don't think that I have ever thought past 2006. I knew that there were more years after and I have considered things that I would do in them. It just never ocurred to me that years kept going after my planning stopped. 2006 has been the ultimate future for so long. It's weird.
I can't believe this year is over. It has been the fastest year of my life. Last New Year's Eve is still so fresh in my memory. Curling irons and all. I can still hear the orgasm noises that we made in my car at 5:30 in the morning and while drinking our Wawa milkshakes and counting orifices. Is this what we expected? What we planned 364 days ago? I think that it is better. This has been the best year of my life so far. I have never had friends this good before. I have never looked forward to anything like I can now.
When I realized that the year would indeed change again, I was a little scared. Only for a second though. I guess this year has gotten me ready for the next. That seems kind of obvious or stupid but it makes sense to me. I have learned that change isn't the worst thing, or even a bad thing, and a lot of the time, it is exactly what you need. I have learned to need people. I have let myself fuck up a few times and learned that the world doesn't end. Because of it, I now have a whole list of things I know I don't want in life. I guess I am ready. I am excited about next year, as long as I don't have to go in alone.
Here's to this year. The year we grew up and left home. The year that we began to take up space as people. The year we had to learn to do things ourselves. The year we left childhood behind. And here's to next year, the year I never saw coming. Here's to, again, making it the best year of my life.
My mom told me I am getting old and I am going to start to see the years. Weirder.
I don't think that I have ever thought past 2006. I knew that there were more years after and I have considered things that I would do in them. It just never ocurred to me that years kept going after my planning stopped. 2006 has been the ultimate future for so long. It's weird.
I can't believe this year is over. It has been the fastest year of my life. Last New Year's Eve is still so fresh in my memory. Curling irons and all. I can still hear the orgasm noises that we made in my car at 5:30 in the morning and while drinking our Wawa milkshakes and counting orifices. Is this what we expected? What we planned 364 days ago? I think that it is better. This has been the best year of my life so far. I have never had friends this good before. I have never looked forward to anything like I can now.
When I realized that the year would indeed change again, I was a little scared. Only for a second though. I guess this year has gotten me ready for the next. That seems kind of obvious or stupid but it makes sense to me. I have learned that change isn't the worst thing, or even a bad thing, and a lot of the time, it is exactly what you need. I have learned to need people. I have let myself fuck up a few times and learned that the world doesn't end. Because of it, I now have a whole list of things I know I don't want in life. I guess I am ready. I am excited about next year, as long as I don't have to go in alone.
Here's to this year. The year we grew up and left home. The year that we began to take up space as people. The year we had to learn to do things ourselves. The year we left childhood behind. And here's to next year, the year I never saw coming. Here's to, again, making it the best year of my life.