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Well I haven't really updated in a while like I used to. Alot of ppl said I've changed. Some say in a good way and some say bad. Things are always changing. No one ever stays the same. Some ppl say that Im more of a bitch than I use to be or Im more of a whore. Since April alot of things have changed. Things I really dont know if I can deal with sometimes.
In April, my mamaw died. As some of you know, I was very close to her. I loved her more than anyone else in my family. She was the one person that was always there. No matter what. Losing her was one of the worst things in my life. A month after that I lost David. For stupid reasons, I broke up with him. He always said he would take me back no matter what. And he said he could never love anyone like he did me. That changed. He fell for Danielle. Alot of you say well he's just a guy. He's more than a guy to me. He was my best friend, he was my first love, he was my everything. It's been 7 months since I lost mamaw and almost 6 since I lost David. Im still not over either. Those are two changes that I wasn't ready for. But I accept it. I accept change. Alot of u need to do that too. You say you care about me and worry about me. Alot of you say that you're afraid Im gonna kill myself cause I've tried before. That doesnt mean Im gonna try again. You say I push you away and I've changed alot. I have changed and I do push alot of you away. You say that soon I wont have any friends because of that. Well, I guess I know that you're not true friends.
Something that gets on my nerves is when people talk about the sweetest people behind their backs. Alot of people say things about the way Alicia looks. She's not perfect. No one is. But she's alot sweeter than alot of you who talk about her. SHe is one of my best friends. She's a true friend, unlike alot of other ppl.
Alot of people wonder why I dont tell them things like I use to. I dont trust alot of ppl anymore. There's 3 ppl that I truly trust. I know that those 3 people are not gonna stab me in the back ever. I know I could trust them with anything.
Im not saying names on here cause I dont want to have a big fight started on here. If u wanna know if Im talkin about u then u can ask me on icq or something.
Well I feel alot better after letting all that out. And if you have a problem with what I say, you can get over it cause this is my LJ and I can write whatever the fuck I want.
In April, my mamaw died. As some of you know, I was very close to her. I loved her more than anyone else in my family. She was the one person that was always there. No matter what. Losing her was one of the worst things in my life. A month after that I lost David. For stupid reasons, I broke up with him. He always said he would take me back no matter what. And he said he could never love anyone like he did me. That changed. He fell for Danielle. Alot of you say well he's just a guy. He's more than a guy to me. He was my best friend, he was my first love, he was my everything. It's been 7 months since I lost mamaw and almost 6 since I lost David. Im still not over either. Those are two changes that I wasn't ready for. But I accept it. I accept change. Alot of u need to do that too. You say you care about me and worry about me. Alot of you say that you're afraid Im gonna kill myself cause I've tried before. That doesnt mean Im gonna try again. You say I push you away and I've changed alot. I have changed and I do push alot of you away. You say that soon I wont have any friends because of that. Well, I guess I know that you're not true friends.
Something that gets on my nerves is when people talk about the sweetest people behind their backs. Alot of people say things about the way Alicia looks. She's not perfect. No one is. But she's alot sweeter than alot of you who talk about her. SHe is one of my best friends. She's a true friend, unlike alot of other ppl.
Alot of people wonder why I dont tell them things like I use to. I dont trust alot of ppl anymore. There's 3 ppl that I truly trust. I know that those 3 people are not gonna stab me in the back ever. I know I could trust them with anything.
Im not saying names on here cause I dont want to have a big fight started on here. If u wanna know if Im talkin about u then u can ask me on icq or something.
Well I feel alot better after letting all that out. And if you have a problem with what I say, you can get over it cause this is my LJ and I can write whatever the fuck I want.