what a snob.
i was reflecting on my entry from when i was admitted into my credential program. how i was disappointed that it was cal state east bay and not somewhere "prestigious" like uc berkeley (even though they don't even offer a soc sci credential).
man, was i wrong. am i still like "wow hayward, huh?" yeah. but my specific team. *my* segment of csueb is goddamned awesome. i want to tell everyone in the world to come and join the new haven single subject prep program. my team leaders are amazing teachers, people, and leaders. they take such great care of us, are really honest about where we are going, and have the most ridiculous passion and dedication to their profession for people having taught for 25 years. i love them. i love us. i know that when i finish this year i will be prepared for anything because of where i am taking my classes.
but the best part is- they are all about what i value in education. it is not about making sure that the kids can recite every fact we teach them back to us; it is about empowering them and showing them that their ideas do have merit. that they can be more than what everyone thinks they can. and they, my team leaders, have been successful at helping kids realize this. does that mean EVERY student that comes into my room will walk out the way i want them to? no. but maybe 90%, and that makes me pretty damn happy.
in other news, there are a lot of possiblities for life after the program and they make me excited and scared all at once. i have decided to reapply to TFA because i realize what i was missing the first time, and thus what i have now that makes me worth their while. BUILD has some amazing chances for me to take, too. for now i have to take it one step at a time, see what actually pans out and then jump on it. who knows where i will be this time next year? all i know is that i will have worked hard to get there and be loving it.
i really ought to get to sleep. tomorrow i have my first faculty and department meetings of my life. oh my god. i am such a teacher now. yikes!
man, was i wrong. am i still like "wow hayward, huh?" yeah. but my specific team. *my* segment of csueb is goddamned awesome. i want to tell everyone in the world to come and join the new haven single subject prep program. my team leaders are amazing teachers, people, and leaders. they take such great care of us, are really honest about where we are going, and have the most ridiculous passion and dedication to their profession for people having taught for 25 years. i love them. i love us. i know that when i finish this year i will be prepared for anything because of where i am taking my classes.
but the best part is- they are all about what i value in education. it is not about making sure that the kids can recite every fact we teach them back to us; it is about empowering them and showing them that their ideas do have merit. that they can be more than what everyone thinks they can. and they, my team leaders, have been successful at helping kids realize this. does that mean EVERY student that comes into my room will walk out the way i want them to? no. but maybe 90%, and that makes me pretty damn happy.
in other news, there are a lot of possiblities for life after the program and they make me excited and scared all at once. i have decided to reapply to TFA because i realize what i was missing the first time, and thus what i have now that makes me worth their while. BUILD has some amazing chances for me to take, too. for now i have to take it one step at a time, see what actually pans out and then jump on it. who knows where i will be this time next year? all i know is that i will have worked hard to get there and be loving it.
i really ought to get to sleep. tomorrow i have my first faculty and department meetings of my life. oh my god. i am such a teacher now. yikes!