Rainy Day Alone

[alyrthia]

Here I am rattling around the house counting spider webs on the ceiling.  I like spiders, and I tend to tolerate a certain number of webs.  After a bit, I swipe the old ones down. The spiders in my house are harmeless and relatively invisible.  Our ceilings are high, so they live in a different stratosphere, unless I am lying on the couch and

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[alyrthia]

No, no, no. I'm not that young. The picture lies. I look older in bright light--it's only in low light I can still pass off looking sort of young. But I'm 51, and it's all in the lighting!!! Amazing how many years standing under a lightbulb can reveal, versus being in softer light!!!

Tidyness? I often feel a bit guilty about not spending more time with my clutter. I like our house very much. It was built in 1908, we bought it as a fixer, and we are still fixing it. But beyond that, we seem to always have some clutter about that would probably drive other people crazy. It's not at all terrible--our house is comfortable. But sometimes I feel guilty that I can often be blind to something I really should be putting to rights.
I feel I should be better about that by now. But alas, my habits are a little lacking. Mind you--not horrible--people like being in our house. But there are things we should be much better at. Dusting on a regular basis, anyone? I forget to do those things.

I heard Desmond Tutu on the radio from San Fransisco before he came up to Seattle. I loved him. He was just given an award by some GLBT group. He promotes acceptance and love. It's interesting because as an Anglican, he has ties to the Episcopal church, which is so liberal in the US. But mostly, in Africa, if my understanding is correct, the Anglican church is much more socially conservative. But not him....:) It is so cool you got to hear him in person!!

[mechtild]

I'm 57, Alyon. I thought you were about 41, not 51! Although I did still feel young at 50. I hadn't started menopause yet. I hope it comes later for you, or doesn't make as much difference. It doesn't, for a lot of people.

"People like being in our house": that is the main indicator of how your are doing. If [normal] people don't want to be in your house, it's time to act. But if they still like being there, there's nothing to be concerned about! I'd come visit you anytime, if I lived near you!

[alyrthia]

Oh, Mech, I'd love you to come and visit!!

And, again. The lighting was kind. I don't normally photograph very well. And not just the age thing--but my face gets all weird and stiff and moves around a lot!!

Yeah, I think our house is sort of hearth-like, and it's gradually getting fixed up. But there are still some fundamental things that make it a bit rustic--such as not having heat in the upper story. But as you know, it's not quite as cold here as in other parts of the country, so it's not so terrible for us.

And my main symptom of shifting hormones (no, not quite "the change" ;) yet) is inability to sleep. Sleep. It's like gold. Can I have it?

[mechtild]

Your home sounds very welcoming. And thank you for the welcome!

You have inability to sleep? I'd just *hate* that. I hope it will pass for you, Alyon. Sleep is such a lovely, blessed thing.