Was it a dream?
It's 5am and I just woke up in a puddle of tears.
I had this dream that was SO real. I was sitting down in the back of the pet shop where I had bought Bella from, and she was there. She climbed on top of my chest and came to give me a snuggle, and she felt so soft. Her eye was back to normal, she looked and felt perfect.
The next second, she died in my arms. And I got to hold her and she wasn't hurting, she was just peaceful. And then I woke up. Sobbing.
She was just a year old, she shouldn't have gone the way she did. I feel incredibly guilty, but my dream was so real. Maybe I can take comfort in knowing she's not in pain anymore, it'd be nice to think that she's somewhere better than this.
It doesn't stop it from hurting so, so bad.
I love you Bella. And I'm sorry.
I had this dream that was SO real. I was sitting down in the back of the pet shop where I had bought Bella from, and she was there. She climbed on top of my chest and came to give me a snuggle, and she felt so soft. Her eye was back to normal, she looked and felt perfect.
The next second, she died in my arms. And I got to hold her and she wasn't hurting, she was just peaceful. And then I woke up. Sobbing.
She was just a year old, she shouldn't have gone the way she did. I feel incredibly guilty, but my dream was so real. Maybe I can take comfort in knowing she's not in pain anymore, it'd be nice to think that she's somewhere better than this.
It doesn't stop it from hurting so, so bad.
I love you Bella. And I'm sorry.