i wish it was Aug 14th
Aug 14th could come sooner for all i care. im tired of the stupid rules that she makes. seriously im tired of everything. im sorry that i have a job that she asked me to get so im not home those nights for dinner and dont have time before work to do much. tomorrow i have all the time in the world to do her stupid shit that she wants me to do that doesnt even effect her. why does she care if my room is clean? is she ever down there? no! is anyone that involves her in my room? no! so why does she care? couldnt tell you. you know she can be the coolest person sometimes but SERIOUSLY. i said i was planning on cleaning my room tomorrow and i still cant do anything till its done. whatever. i feel like im 5 years old. maybe thats because i get treated like im 5. i want out of this tiny room. finally i have something to do tonight and...no sorry i cant cuz my room isnt clean.
i dont go out ever anymore because no one really calls me anymore. i maybe go out one time a week. and by go out i mean see a movie, go out to dinner, or go to someones house for maybe an hour. you have no idea how long i have been looking forward to my graduation party because it would be like the highlight of the month. i wish i worked more hours actually cuz then i would be out of my house and doing something productive. not just... sitting. i wish a lot of things though. i wish i had more friends. i wish i had a best friend like everyone else that i can call and do anything with. i wish that the friends i did have would call me more. i wish that i was happy more because it isnt easy to fake when im not. and that brings me back to my first statement... i wish it was Aug 14th because then i will be around more people, meeting more people, staying busy with school or my sorority or new friends and away from the stupid rules i live by.
im sorry nathan and andy that i couldnt come.
i dont go out ever anymore because no one really calls me anymore. i maybe go out one time a week. and by go out i mean see a movie, go out to dinner, or go to someones house for maybe an hour. you have no idea how long i have been looking forward to my graduation party because it would be like the highlight of the month. i wish i worked more hours actually cuz then i would be out of my house and doing something productive. not just... sitting. i wish a lot of things though. i wish i had more friends. i wish i had a best friend like everyone else that i can call and do anything with. i wish that the friends i did have would call me more. i wish that i was happy more because it isnt easy to fake when im not. and that brings me back to my first statement... i wish it was Aug 14th because then i will be around more people, meeting more people, staying busy with school or my sorority or new friends and away from the stupid rules i live by.
im sorry nathan and andy that i couldnt come.