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[alyciafox]

I am such a bitch and I treat everyone in my life like shit. I see the lives of people I don't know and wonder how the fuck their so social. I always make plans with people then cancel them because when it comes down to the hour I'm supposed to hang out with them I'd rather be sitting in my living room watching some shitty sitcom alone. I really don't like being around people. I don't know how to talk to people. I haven't been myself at all lately and I need to work on it, and by lately I mean the last like three years of my life. I miss Micah and I talked to him yesterday. I wouldn't say I love him but I still care about him so much for never seeing him, for the last year and a half. There's so many people I used to be so close to and he is one of the only people I can honestly say that I miss..ahh and Colin!


Arrrghhh so depressing. I know things can never go back to the way they were when I was fifteen but I can dream can't I?