Well......... Its College.
Ok so I have a sudden infatuation will letting everyone in on my life. I love reading livejournals so I'm going to keep the posting! Last night was so much fun. Initiation is running this whole week and its so awesome to connect with 50+ other girls on being in Chi Omega. I got to spend time with my big, whom I absolutely adore. She is everything I strive to be. Nice, artistic, friendly, outgoing, faithful, and close to her family. We have so much in common its scary! But lately I really haven't been myself. I worked too hard to keep a good reputation in high school and I want to live up to the standards that my parents raised me to follow. Lately I find that I'm almost starving for attention:-/ Its so exausting at this school. Everyone was President of Student Council or Prom Queen or Homecoming Queen or Valevictorian or an outstanding athlete. And thats not even taking in consideration how beautiful all the girls are. Its so intimidating! I just don't want to get mixed up in lies or habits that I try to make myself stand out. Honestly I find myself making the DUMBEST remarks about the DUMBEST stuff. I just dont want people to think that is who I am. So clean slate starting today. As Andi told me let people see that this is me, take it or leave it. Those who are really worth being friends with can take it. It's just hard. People at Riverview were a little more accepting believe it or not. No more ugly habits or dumb remarks. I honestly didn't realize that I acted like that when I felt under pressure. At least I know now.
On a positive note I joined the Gator Swim Club. I actually got out there at 5am and swam. It was awesome. There is just something that I can't explain about the sport that puts me in my place. It makes me feel so good about myself to know I worked out and theres something so soothing about getting in the water. Its time for me to think and push myself to be better. I know it sounds absolutely rediculous but I am at my best physically and mentally when I am swimming everyday. I just feel confident.
I'm so cheesy lol. But I guess thats what this thing is for eh? Spilling crizazy emotions!
AND I swam with the hot UF swim team in the lanes next to me. I think i brushed my arm against a guy in the next lane at one point. ahhh.
just kidding. It was pretty cool to see them though. They are amazing athletes.
And special thanks to Devin who has been putting up with me while I run. I know we can get on each others nerves but you really are an awesome friend Devo:-D
On a positive note I joined the Gator Swim Club. I actually got out there at 5am and swam. It was awesome. There is just something that I can't explain about the sport that puts me in my place. It makes me feel so good about myself to know I worked out and theres something so soothing about getting in the water. Its time for me to think and push myself to be better. I know it sounds absolutely rediculous but I am at my best physically and mentally when I am swimming everyday. I just feel confident.
I'm so cheesy lol. But I guess thats what this thing is for eh? Spilling crizazy emotions!
AND I swam with the hot UF swim team in the lanes next to me. I think i brushed my arm against a guy in the next lane at one point. ahhh.
just kidding. It was pretty cool to see them though. They are amazing athletes.
And special thanks to Devin who has been putting up with me while I run. I know we can get on each others nerves but you really are an awesome friend Devo:-D