Ill read it. And Ill listen, and when you want, Ill give advice. Because I know how you are feeling. I am afraid of most of those exact things... and i just went through a few of them too.
Except I want to grow up. I want to be independent, and i want to do things on my own. I want to leave and I want to get away. I want my own appt. I want to cook for myself. I want to solve my own problems. I hate sitting in my room all day with nothing to do. I want to start over. (I am so glad I am not in High School anymore. Its nice to be free to make my own decisions.To make my own silly mistakes. To learn how to deal with people. No PARENTS or teachers telling me what to do. [I guess I got lucky, My parents quit telling me what to do when I was a junior at least.] I enjoy walking to and from my classes outside in the grass in my flip flops. Meeting new people isn't that bad. It gives you a chance to start over/fresh. College has been the best thing to happen to me.)
Life goes on. You get hurt, but there is very little you can do to change that. Just wake up everyday. Be proud of who you are and the decisions you have made. Forgive yourself for the mistakes. You learn and you are stronger from them.
For 2 and a half years Ashley Thomas was the only person I talked to. I mean really in-depth. She knew every one of my secrets. And she still loved me. I knew her secrets. We were more than friends. We were parts of each other. When she broke up with me, i didn't know what to do. I had soo much going through my mind and i didn't know who to talk to. I tried talking to her, my best friend, but she got mad because all i talked about was us. I couldnt let "us" go. I had no option. I had to talk to other people. Because if i didn't, i would EXPLODE! And it wasn't that bad. Even if they didn't have helpful advice. Just the fact that somebody was listening helped. I tried not to hold back. Everything went. And it allowed me to help clear my head, and to find what i was really feeling/thinking. Although it was mostly confusion. I had soo many unanswered questions.
I enjoy typing, While I may not be especially good at it, it forces me to think and re-think before I say. (I have a problem with saying the wrong thing at the wrong time) And it gives me time to think about what I want to say. I think its easier sometimes to just spill your guts to a computer screen and THEN have somebody read/analyze it. For me, it makes everything more honest. After I type it, I can think on it and make sure its what I REALLY believe.
Ill listen to you. my email is drumalot24@yahoo.com If you would like, you can spill your guts out and you can let me know everything. I promise not to judge you or take advantage of you or whatever. It would be a nice change of pace, and it would help to get my mind off stuff. You don't have to though if you feel it would be too awkward. The hardest part though, is breaking the ice. For me at least. Once im talking about this stuff, i cant stop.
Ill tell you what I have been going through if you want (although you pretty much have read all about it. It will just take a few emails to cover all of it.
Im looking forward to having coffee with you. I could use a good Coffee Frap.
Except I want to grow up. I want to be independent, and i want to do things on my own. I want to leave and I want to get away. I want my own appt. I want to cook for myself. I want to solve my own problems. I hate sitting in my room all day with nothing to do.
I want to start over.
(I am so glad I am not in High School anymore. Its nice to be free to make my own decisions.To make my own silly mistakes. To learn how to deal with people. No PARENTS or teachers telling me what to do. [I guess I got lucky, My parents quit telling me what to do when I was a junior at least.] I enjoy walking to and from my classes outside in the grass in my flip flops. Meeting new people isn't that bad. It gives you a chance to start over/fresh. College has been the best thing to happen to me.)
Life goes on. You get hurt, but there is very little you can do to change that. Just wake up everyday. Be proud of who you are and the decisions you have made. Forgive yourself for the mistakes. You learn and you are stronger from them.
For 2 and a half years Ashley Thomas was the only person I talked to. I mean really in-depth. She knew every one of my secrets. And she still loved me. I knew her secrets. We were more than friends. We were parts of each other.
When she broke up with me, i didn't know what to do. I had soo much going through my mind and i didn't know who to talk to. I tried talking to her, my best friend, but she got mad because all i talked about was us. I couldnt let "us" go. I had no option. I had to talk to other people. Because if i didn't, i would EXPLODE! And it wasn't that bad. Even if they didn't have helpful advice. Just the fact that somebody was listening helped. I tried not to hold back. Everything went. And it allowed me to help clear my head, and to find what i was really feeling/thinking. Although it was mostly confusion. I had soo many unanswered questions.
I enjoy typing, While I may not be especially good at it, it forces me to think and re-think before I say. (I have a problem with saying the wrong thing at the wrong time) And it gives me time to think about what I want to say. I think its easier sometimes to just spill your guts to a computer screen and THEN have somebody read/analyze it. For me, it makes everything more honest. After I type it, I can think on it and make sure its what I REALLY believe.
Ill listen to you. my email is drumalot24@yahoo.com
If you would like, you can spill your guts out and you can let me know everything. I promise not to judge you or take advantage of you or whatever.
It would be a nice change of pace, and it would help to get my mind off stuff. You don't have to though if you feel it would be too awkward. The hardest part though, is breaking the ice. For me at least. Once im talking about this stuff, i cant stop.
Ill tell you what I have been going through if you want (although you pretty much have read all about it. It will just take a few emails to cover all of it.
Im looking forward to having coffee with you. I could use a good Coffee Frap.
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