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brandon left of tuesday. ive written him a letter everyday so far, but cant send them till he sends me one with his address. i feel so lonely. nothing feels important anymore, its just surreal to not be able to see or talk to him. everything reminds me of him, at least he doesnt have to go through that. ive been getting high alot, it seems to be the only way of dealing with how sad i am, plus it makes me hungry, which i havent been what so ever. school starts tomorrow, hopefully having fuller days will keep me occupied and not let me focus on how sad i truely am. i never thought i could love again, but i have. and its "end all."