Cynical and Jaded
It's so easy to say 'I am ok'. But how many of us actually feel ok?
These days, I have been sure that I am alright, that I am fine with the way things have turned out. But not too long ago, I was suddenly overwhelmed by certain happenings which I was certain I had come to terms with previously. Could it be that I have been avoiding those issues/problems all along? I'd always thought that "putting those unpleasant issues away" meant that I had dealt with it. But now I guess I know that the opposite is true. That I have not dealt with any of those problems at all. Most of the time, I am unaffected. Then suddenly there is a trigger and I am stunned by the rush of memories that follow. Why can't my life be peaceful and uneventful? Why do I feel cynical and jaded? Maybe it's time for a change in lifestyle and mindset.
These days, I have been sure that I am alright, that I am fine with the way things have turned out. But not too long ago, I was suddenly overwhelmed by certain happenings which I was certain I had come to terms with previously. Could it be that I have been avoiding those issues/problems all along? I'd always thought that "putting those unpleasant issues away" meant that I had dealt with it. But now I guess I know that the opposite is true. That I have not dealt with any of those problems at all. Most of the time, I am unaffected. Then suddenly there is a trigger and I am stunned by the rush of memories that follow. Why can't my life be peaceful and uneventful? Why do I feel cynical and jaded? Maybe it's time for a change in lifestyle and mindset.