Crazy things
I've done some crazy things in my life. And by crazy, I don't mean wacky-cukkoo sort of crazy. Crazy as in out-of-character kind of crazy. Normally I am this zen-like, nothing-excites-me person. Yet once in a while I go all nuts and hyper and excitable. I don't plan my life ahead and yet there are some things that I know I can never ever do. It's like I have already mapped out my life plan or something, but it's just not tangible enough for me to know that it really does exist. Anyway, once in a while I do something which veers away from this invisible plan and consequences are somewhat mind-boggling. Like the time I signed up for this travelogue show (Five Takes) and ended up one of 600 finalists (out of 8000 applicants). In the end, I chickened out cos I 'just knew' I would never be able to give up my studies (I was a yr away from graduation) to pursue this. So I just didn't show up for the audition though I was totally pysched up about it. Now, about 6 years later, I am once again considering pursuing the life that I had always wanted and dreamt about for as long as I can remember. I hope that one day I will have the courage to take the first step and never look back with regrets.