This is morning, that's when I spend the most time thinking about what I've given up..

[alwyzasweety]

Tell me, doctor, how to shake a waking nightmare that is only worse while you are sleeping..

I hate when ur in my dreams.. I finally get to the point where I can handle ur tugging at my heart strings and then u appear to me in my dreams.. The worst part is that ur just as unattainable in my dreams as in real life but for some reason it hurts more when I dream it.. Probably because for some reason I can see you and I can visually see the way u live your life without me, without a care, not worrying about what I'm doing or feeling, as if I had never existed.. In my dream I am ashamed of something and just need help. Despite my embarrassment and the awkward situation I find myself in, I am desperately calling on u for help because ur all that I have.. And all u do is ignore me, ignore that I even exist.. I hope ur life is better now that I am not a part of it.. I hope giving u wat u wanted is making u happy.. I want u to be happy.. Even if its at the expense of my happiness..

It was you I was thinking of.. And I can't get to you...