Quandries-Shannon ignores talking about Christmas in favor of the right now

[alwyshrt1uluv]

Sometimes I don't know who I am.   It bothers me.

Not in the annoying amnesia way, or the am I alive? or really in my imagination? way.  I don't know my self.  My core.

Most of the time I'm completely sure but sometimes I have jarring moments where i hear myself speak and see myself doing something and I watch, from the outside and think "who is that

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[burntogold]

The Buddha tried to prove that once you strip away all that stuff- likes, dislikes, experience - that there ultimately is no self.

My Wiccan / Pagan counter to this is that that's not entirely true. There's still the Will that exists in the Eternal Now, and thus it's our conscious ability to make choices that affect our world that gives us an individual self.

My Catholic counter to this is much more bland. No self? So What? More of Jesus, less of me. If Jesus acts through me, that's enough.

Comment Part 1

[vampyrsgetmehot]

You may be unsure of who you are, but I know exactly who you are and I couldn't love you more

Comment Part 2

[vampyrsgetmehot]

You are the fun girl. You have always known how to have fun. I never have a boring moment when I'm with you. You like to enjoy yourself and experience life, and I wish to God I could be more like you. If it weren't for having you in my life, I would have been soooo extremely cautious and paranoid about EVERYTHING that I would be living like a hermit by now. You loosen me up. I trust you so completely and know you would never put me in any dangerous situation, so when I'm with you I am 1000 times more likely to try something new than without you. I can't wait till I get my license and you can re-teach me to have fun with you like the old days