so i told him... ug so weird my FRIEND! why am i feeling this!
sorry i went to paste something else but that popped up... i dunno but yeah n e ways it may seem wack that im writing u cuz u live wit me but that aint the point. ug the point is i am having some issues like ... damn ... im prolly gonna get baked (wait let me correct that "deep fried" ) for a minute over this but i gotta be real wit myself. ok.... i dont have feelings for u but i do but i dont but i do but i dont. make sence? no....... doesnt to me either.... hahaha... but seriously ug u are on my brain a lot and its botehring me because im like "ok um why am i thinking about him... hes my friend, hes mean, (but nice) he doesnt like me like that, im not tryna cause any more drama with joe (who still gots feelings for u) so why am i thinking about him...?" ug this battle with myself is killing me. get outta my head. I dont know what to do sometimes i dont like some things u do and im just like whatever and i hate how u always tell me im anoying or talk to much and irritating. im really not trying to bother u or get compared to my mom honestly i am trying. and other times i see how u talk to people . the things u say. how u give advice and your out look on things and im like " damn hes got depth " and i find that atractive. UG cant believe i just said i find u atractive... u are really but still im not trying to knock down my " i dont want ya ass" image i try to keep up. anyway i gotta be real and i dont know what to do because i know u dont like me and i dont think i wanna be your girlfriend.... i know im NOT your type.... so knowing those things i dont see why im still drawn to you........and im just LOST but yeah thats y part of me doesnt want u to get with Jennifer because then i cant give u head or try to get a bar no more because im close to her. n e ways dayum Sorry im writing a novel but im jsut saying i MIGHT be getting feelings for u just a LITTLE so dont let it make me being your friend weird. and dont let it make me not get to give u head no more because u think imma fall in love cuz i wont. i know how to jsut not act on things. anyways i dont know wtf u gonna write back but i feel relieved getting that off my chest! *sigh*