A Little Pissed..

[alwayzthefriend]

So I havent seen Chris since I left his house on Monday. We have been getting into stupid arguments on the phone about that. Well he was being a real dick to me and Elizabeth wanted to say something to him about it. So she took my phone and called him. Well he got real upset with her and started cussing which made her mad...then I called him back to apoligize for that and he said it was stupid that my friend called on my phone to yell at him. Anyway he said he wasn't really mad and then he asked to talk to her again so he could apologize. He told me that is the ballsist girl that he has ever met. Anyway we talked to a few minutes after that and then he said that he would call me before I left my internship and let me know if it would be a good idea for me to come up there for a lil bit or not. Well its now 12:44pm on Thursday and I still have yet to hear from him. Which is totally not like him b/c he always atleast calls to say goodnight. THe only thing I can think of is that he is really really pissed that Elizabeth called him. If she ruined my chances with him I am gunna be so mad. Everyone that I have told the whole story to tells me that I can do soo much better. It just sucks though b/c I could totally see myself marrying this guy and he felt the same way. He actually told me that first. Its worrying me that he hasn't called b/c he leaves to go back to Mississippi tomorrow and then on Saturday they are flying him out to Kuwait! I would hate for him to leave for there mad at me and I would really hate for him to leave for there not having talked to me again. He would be a real prick if he did that! I am getting worried though and that is not good. I mean I know I worry about everything but still it just sucks. I mean I have not eaten in this would be the 2nd day. I have never been this way over a guy before. I have never really felt this way before I don't think. I am just scared to loose him b/c of the way that I feel for him. I just wish he would call me. Hell if I had another phone whose number he wouldn't recognize to call from I would sooo use it just to talk to him just b/c i think that he might be avoiding my calls. Which is asked if he was doing before and he said he wasnt and got all pissed off that I even would think that. Well I would just hate for him to leave on bad terms like this....

I'm gunna go get in the shower now b/c I am gunna go hang out with Phillip today for a little bit. Haven't hung out with him in awhile. So why not? Besides it will take my mind off of Chris!