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These past couple of months have soared by. I am initiated into tri delta and it seriously feels like i just signed my bid card yersterday. I would be happy about this fast paced year if it wasn't for the fact that I just cant keep up with it. My grades are terrible, honestly Im going to be surprised if I keep my millinium and im not put in bad standings. The thing is I get in these moods where I want to achieve and try really hard but I just cant find the time, none the less the energy to do all of it. Today I was cleaning my room and doing my laundry for the first time in seriously like a month and I found a glass that had rotted so much there was like a green slime mold forming, I have been cleaning my room for about two and a half hours total and if someone were to walk in they would still think it was extremely messy, i feel like i cant get my homework done until my room is clean and then when i finally start getting to the homework i am supposed to be doing i dont even know where to start because I am that far behind.
Aside from being completely helpless when it comes to school i feel lonely. I miss Cameron so much its not even funny, i never realized how much he affected me as a person, i feel different and weird without him. We cant really talk too intensly either because for some strange reason he has absolutely no service anywhere on his stupid campus. I miss having tons of friends in all the same classes as me that used to keep me on track, i would go to class because if i didnt i would catch shit from them, i would do my homework and study for tests because of that competitive nature.
Socially I am enjoying life, its weird having tons of friends but really no close friends. I have never been the person to just have that but I am enoying it, at times I get a little lonely but it keeps things simple and although i shouldnt view relationships as a stressful situation it is. Guys are not a constant in my life at all, ive dated a couple of guys but none of which that i would like to stick around, its kind of just something to fill up some of my time that i really dont have.
Overall life is good, hard, and stressful. I dont think ive been this happy and excited though, next semester will rock.
Aside from being completely helpless when it comes to school i feel lonely. I miss Cameron so much its not even funny, i never realized how much he affected me as a person, i feel different and weird without him. We cant really talk too intensly either because for some strange reason he has absolutely no service anywhere on his stupid campus. I miss having tons of friends in all the same classes as me that used to keep me on track, i would go to class because if i didnt i would catch shit from them, i would do my homework and study for tests because of that competitive nature.
Socially I am enjoying life, its weird having tons of friends but really no close friends. I have never been the person to just have that but I am enoying it, at times I get a little lonely but it keeps things simple and although i shouldnt view relationships as a stressful situation it is. Guys are not a constant in my life at all, ive dated a couple of guys but none of which that i would like to stick around, its kind of just something to fill up some of my time that i really dont have.
Overall life is good, hard, and stressful. I dont think ive been this happy and excited though, next semester will rock.