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I know I haven’t really updated in a while…I’ve just been really busy with work and a bunch of other stuff…Well…Work’s been fun…Love workin’ with kids…tis all on that matter…
Went to a party with Sarah last weekend to her friend’s father’s girlfriend’s relative’s house. It was more like a BBQ and it was fun. Found out that that John’s friend or w/e liked me and thought I was cute…He’s 13-14 ish and wanted to know if I liked him. I just told him that he was great to hang with and he was cute, but too young. Sarah, John, Buddy and I ended up going swimming in the pool fully-clothed. Twas fun…
Sarah seemed sorta jealous that Buddy liked me…she said, “Well, that’s another one to the list of who likes you.” Ya know what Sarah? I don’t care. Ok? I. Don’t. Care. The guys who like me are either too young or too old for me. None my age or possible 1, 2, or even 3 years older than me. I go for the older guys, but not THAT much older, ya know? I mean, what if that guy has had WAY more experience than me? I’d feel so…I dunno…Just…Nevermind…I don’t know how to explain it…And one of my rules had always been: I only date virgins. Well, I haven’t had a b/f so that doesn’t really matter now does it?
I feel like crap at the moment…I keep thinking about finding someone…At my cousin Kate’s wedding reception, I was so happy. It all started out wonderfully…then when the bride and groom had their first dance, I just sat there…frozen and paralyzed with loneliness…then I requested cotton-eye-joe (or however its spelled) and Emee and I danced to that. Then “yeah” by Usher, “Holla Back Girl” by Gwen. Twas fun…Then more of the slow dances with couples…I friggin hate it…
Got my first paycheck…$71…not bad I guess…I’m not working as much as I want to, but its aight I guess…
Sarah and her family got a new puppy…A boy golden retriever, 8 wks old, and his name is Reily. I dunno how they spell it…But I saw him and he is so friggin cute! ^-^ She and I wanna get together over the weekend…
I’m not working Mon and Fri of next week…and I want to go up to the Cape to see my cousin Erica…I haven’t gone so far this yr and I miss being able to walk on the beach 5 mins from their house at night, with the sun setting, feeling the cool sand between my toes and listening to the soft rushing of water lapping upon the golden shore. O_O I <3 being descriptive! ^-^ Anyhoo…Erica and I have done that a few times and Its just so relaxing…I hope we can do that WHEN and IF I go up there next…
Um…I don’t really have anything else to put…I told my mom I’m typing up more of the story I’ve been writing and I don’t want her to get suspicious…So I’m off for now…
Later
Love always,
Tia
And I just wanna say…that I’m sorry I can’t be perfect…I can’t seem to give people the happiness they deserve…but it’s a bit difficult to try when I’m feeling as though happiness has abandoned me…