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Cali was so much fun. I’m not gonna put EVERYTHING we did in here…but I’ll just give ya’ll the jist of it…
Sat-Arrived in San Diego, hung out at hotel
Sun-Met up with my Grandparents and spent the night there
Mon-Went shopping at Fashion Valley then spent another night there
Tues-Toured the MIDWAY, famous navy carrier boat not in service, and met up later on with my Uncle to go on my Grandma and Grandpa’s boat
Wed-Went to San Diego Zoo then hung out at hotel
Thurs-Came home
Tis the summary…
One thing that is still burning within my mind is that my cousin, Erica, who I was in Cali with, said I should become a model…While we were at my Grandparents’ house, we were in the guest room and I had gotten…Oh crap! I can’t say it yet in case the person reads this…erm…*thinks* well…Anyhoo…I started posing and she started snapping pictures…I did different poses each time. That was when she suggested I model…odd huh? I mean…A few girls at my school have suggested that I start modeling…And I have thought about it…Yet I didn’t know if they were joking or being serious…but anyhoo…I have seriously thought about it…but…there’s money involved, isn’t there??? I don’t have money to start…I dunno if there are sponsors or what…but I would really like to try…I honestly would…But…I’m not exactly…erm…shall we say: “model material”…*coughs* Nevermind…I should never have mentioned anything…
Well…I don’t really have anything else to say…save that I’m kinda depressed at the moment…Mainly because I miss a few certain someones…one is terribly missed though…But…yea…
I’m gonna go for now…need to simmer down a little…
Added: The first night I was in Cali, it felt as though I had a huge gaping hole in my heart and in the pit of my stomach…the rest of the time was similar…Erica counted how many times I mentioned em…I don’t blame her…I feel so damn empty…You have NO idea…Right now…I feel like there is a nothingness inside of me…It spreads from my heart throughout my entrie being…my entire body…I want to be held…I want to be told that I’m loved and that nothing and no one can hurt me… I want to be held in arms that are comforting and strong and protective…Someone to just…ya know…aw hell. Nevermind…again.
‘Night…