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so i have had a really .... interesting week.
my roommates brought me into st marthas (the hospital here) and they kept me from monday to thursday. i was so scared going in, so angry but i have realized a lot of things and i think, i hope, i have achieved so much since last week. last weekend was rock bottom for me, i really would have killed myself if not for the fact i couldnt think if an effective way that was accessible. its been a real turning point. my roommates are still acting... distant for sure. i dont have anyone to really talk to... but i hope i am doing better and not just part of the cycle. i really dont want to cut again, and i long for a day when it wont be a struggle anymore.
my roommates brought me into st marthas (the hospital here) and they kept me from monday to thursday. i was so scared going in, so angry but i have realized a lot of things and i think, i hope, i have achieved so much since last week. last weekend was rock bottom for me, i really would have killed myself if not for the fact i couldnt think if an effective way that was accessible. its been a real turning point. my roommates are still acting... distant for sure. i dont have anyone to really talk to... but i hope i am doing better and not just part of the cycle. i really dont want to cut again, and i long for a day when it wont be a struggle anymore.