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well, this is an interesting turn of events. for sure.
i've been skeptical about my new relationship with steven from the start, but i've tried to ignore that skepticism in favor of actually being happy. my concerns are that we don't have enough in common to even have a decent conversation, much less keep us together. so i've been trying to address this concern, incorporating more interesting things into conversation and trying to prompt him to add his two cents. lord knows i don't want to spend an hour talking about ashley parker angel and american idol. jesus christ, NO!
last night, though, he flipped the tables on me, totally from left field. he said that he feels too much pressure to spend time with me because of his busy schedule, and that he wants to "take a step back" and not be together, but continue talking to get to know each other better. his "busy schedule" includes school (i can accept that), friends (fair enough, but we could both sacrifice one night a week), family (hard for me to believe is a valid reason), and god (BULLSHIT, he doesn't even go to church)--in that order. he even went so far as to mention that when his friend interrupted our first date that he went to save her from crying alone, which i distinctly remember not liking too much.
so he wants to take a step back, ok. his reasoning is faulty--i honestly think that if you care about someone, you'll sacrifice part of your "busy schedule," be it friend or family time, to spend with your significant other. in addition to that, my fear of stagnation makes me further oppose his choice.
anyway. i have a choice now: try the "step back" or break it off. ugh.
i've been skeptical about my new relationship with steven from the start, but i've tried to ignore that skepticism in favor of actually being happy. my concerns are that we don't have enough in common to even have a decent conversation, much less keep us together. so i've been trying to address this concern, incorporating more interesting things into conversation and trying to prompt him to add his two cents. lord knows i don't want to spend an hour talking about ashley parker angel and american idol. jesus christ, NO!
last night, though, he flipped the tables on me, totally from left field. he said that he feels too much pressure to spend time with me because of his busy schedule, and that he wants to "take a step back" and not be together, but continue talking to get to know each other better. his "busy schedule" includes school (i can accept that), friends (fair enough, but we could both sacrifice one night a week), family (hard for me to believe is a valid reason), and god (BULLSHIT, he doesn't even go to church)--in that order. he even went so far as to mention that when his friend interrupted our first date that he went to save her from crying alone, which i distinctly remember not liking too much.
so he wants to take a step back, ok. his reasoning is faulty--i honestly think that if you care about someone, you'll sacrifice part of your "busy schedule," be it friend or family time, to spend with your significant other. in addition to that, my fear of stagnation makes me further oppose his choice.
anyway. i have a choice now: try the "step back" or break it off. ugh.