preparing for a major life change
i'm confident lately, inspired. inspired, but quickly exhausted. excited, but nervous.
for sure, my hand-eye coordination has improved significantly. who knew working in a molecular & microbiology lab would give me confidence and make me feel graceful with the way i move. i, the manipulator, cloner of DNA, the transfector of cells, the isolater of very specific amino acid sequences. all with a careful pipetting, vortexing, polymerase chane reactioning...power tripping?
this semester i have accomplished a lot for myself. i have solid A's in every class entering finals, i'm happy and inspired by my courses and have made some genuine friendships with classmates i see around campus. i began working in two labs, one psychological related and dealing with memory and taste aversion, one medical related and dealing with how the expression of certain proteins relate to acute lung injury or lung cancer. i've been training for a mini triathlon this summer, and am doing combination training, working towards being in excellent shape. i've read 8 new books so far this year, working towards my resolution of 23. i've been in a long distance relationship for the first time in my life with a boy (i feel weird using the term 'man' even at 22, why?) that i am fully in love with. it hasn't been easy, but our ability to have
amazing conversations via internet (we've been BIFF's for 2 1/2 years now :p) have made me feel like he is with me, and we are connected, and make the 100+ miles feel like nothing.
(but under all this "success", i'm anxious for summer to begin, and anticipating how to deal with the change of being back home)
anyway. i've had a poetic mind lately. i think that's how spring makes me feel magical. i really need to go buy a paper journal to document what i've been thinking. here's something i scribbled down at the computer lab, a conclusion i came to about how i (can?) feel my best:
How important it is to remember these are all people with hopes and needs and fears and loves. When you're passionate, you feel it in everyone else. Internalization of how everyone else can feel like you do, and you identify with this.
maybe this is why i always smile at people, i act polite even if they appear not to appreciate it. i believe, or want to believe, it makes a difference to them.
mas to come...
for sure, my hand-eye coordination has improved significantly. who knew working in a molecular & microbiology lab would give me confidence and make me feel graceful with the way i move. i, the manipulator, cloner of DNA, the transfector of cells, the isolater of very specific amino acid sequences. all with a careful pipetting, vortexing, polymerase chane reactioning...power tripping?
this semester i have accomplished a lot for myself. i have solid A's in every class entering finals, i'm happy and inspired by my courses and have made some genuine friendships with classmates i see around campus. i began working in two labs, one psychological related and dealing with memory and taste aversion, one medical related and dealing with how the expression of certain proteins relate to acute lung injury or lung cancer. i've been training for a mini triathlon this summer, and am doing combination training, working towards being in excellent shape. i've read 8 new books so far this year, working towards my resolution of 23. i've been in a long distance relationship for the first time in my life with a boy (i feel weird using the term 'man' even at 22, why?) that i am fully in love with. it hasn't been easy, but our ability to have
amazing conversations via internet (we've been BIFF's for 2 1/2 years now :p) have made me feel like he is with me, and we are connected, and make the 100+ miles feel like nothing.
(but under all this "success", i'm anxious for summer to begin, and anticipating how to deal with the change of being back home)
anyway. i've had a poetic mind lately. i think that's how spring makes me feel magical. i really need to go buy a paper journal to document what i've been thinking. here's something i scribbled down at the computer lab, a conclusion i came to about how i (can?) feel my best:
How important it is to remember these are all people with hopes and needs and fears and loves. When you're passionate, you feel it in everyone else. Internalization of how everyone else can feel like you do, and you identify with this.
maybe this is why i always smile at people, i act polite even if they appear not to appreciate it. i believe, or want to believe, it makes a difference to them.
mas to come...