I miss...
I miss when everyone used to hang out and have fun on friday nights. Or anytime in general. I find myself sitting around thinking about the nights that everyone would go out and have fun more and more often. I dont know why, maybe it's just my way of trying to hold onto what I have. I miss sitting in Denny's with Will, Mindi and Sean. I miss the crowded nights at DM when you always knew some one and could always find someone to talk to when you needed them. I miss the feeling that I'm not replaceable and that people cared. I'm not saying that I dont get that feeling from anyone anymore, but it's just not as strong as it used to be. I guess expecting people to keep their relationship with you the same while your own relationships change isn't a reality. Anyone I dont talk to as often as I should, or used to, I'm sorry. You know I love all my friends and you're all close to me. Even if it's not as close as I'd like to be. I just wish I could keep things the same. I'm feeling desperate as I realize people are slipping away from me, and I just can't bare losing anyone. Whether it's because they're moving, or I just simply won't see or talk to them them as often anymore... I needed to say all this.
-Jess