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alwaysminekg719

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Jan 29, 2006 19:10

i was in a weird mood when sarah was working next to me. like i wasnt all that happy and i was like blah leave me alone type of thing..but she was talkin to me...i wasnt really interested..i wasnt really excited. not because of her but i think i was just getting annoyed cuz no one up front could hear me...and then it takes forever for someone to ( Read more... )

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urminetohavhold January 30 2006, 20:55:00 UTC

i'm sorry for being so harsh last night. i really didn't mean to make you feel like a friendship with you would be a terrible and stressful thing. it's just when we do talk you want me to spend a lot of time with you and i just can't do that. maybe i'm not a good friend to your standards. i'm not the type of friend that you just talk to on the phone for hours late at night. i have my life and my friends all have their's. we call each other to hang out... and we talk then. i know that's not what you want from a friend, and i'm sorry i let you down like that. despite everything i just want you to know that even though i was really cold last night i do care... even if you don't see it as a lot. i'm sorry that i can't give you the time you need.

alwaysminekg719 January 31 2006, 07:07:13 UTC

kaitlyn...all i have to say is...u make it out to be harder then it really it has to be.
but if it is this way..so be it. i know that i have tried..i know that i did give you a lot too, that u seemed to fail to mention last night. i gave u ur credit..i was trying to forgive..be the bigger person. if u cant accept my apology or even care that i dont wanna hold a grudge against you..that is fine as well. but at least i know this way...i have tried.
and if u do care..u would have at least appreciated the fact that i gave u credit, and that i was forgiving you. YOU of all people know how hard that is for me.

urminetohavhold February 1 2006, 23:13:42 UTC

i know how it is, for me. you see it differently. i am not the kind of friend you need. i am just too selfish.

i do appreciate it. and i do accept your appology. but you know how important timing is. it came too late. i'm sorry. maybe one day we will come to understand each other again.

i hope you will come not to spite me for my decisions and look into them without judging... i am just trying to keep things okay for myself and for you. and right now i know i would let you down as a friend. i explained to you how i am like that and you don't seem to understand it. that is why i say i can't do it.

it seems to me that i will just keep hurting you, reguardless of how i try not to, until you have learned to see why i do things the way i do them- you will always take everything personally and be hurt by it. so for your own sake look at what it is you're trying to do and the way you're doing it and the way you are reacting to it and question if it's really the right thing to do.

alwaysminekg719 February 2 2006, 07:18:31 UTC

i understand ur decision, and i agree maybe its not the best time..but damn kaitlyn...that doesnt mean i dont have feelings or reactions behind that(for example..u may be happy for someone else because they are moving on with their lives when its without you and their happy, but u still have those feelings where u wish u were apart of that and it makes u sad)...dont lecture me in saying i dont understand..just STOP with this whole dr.phil speech in telling me to try and look at things in a different view, let me see it as it comes...not because u explained it to me. after all...u know ppl only learn from themselves like that. right now its gonna be all or nothing with you..and thats how it is ( ... )