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i know i thought of this brilliant thing when i was high...
oooh...like say for instance...the things u dont like about urself..for example say if ur a neat freak...then u check out someone elses room and see its all orderly and organized and u dont like the fact that ur a neat freak...so u end up not liking that person. u dont admit the fact that u dont like that about urself..u just see it as the way u are..but when u see someone else like that ur like ooh i dont like that shit.
i think i do that shit..
idk what i was thinking to come up with this but faith was talking and some how i got lost in my own thoughts.
oh man yesterday i was fucked up all day. me tara and faith smoked first...then we left faiths house later to go to nikkis house..where we drank and i came home at like 1:30. ashley drove me home. elysia kept saying i was no fun..cuz i started to get real tired cuz of smoking..and then eating something after it...then drinking...thats just a sleepy combo for me. she said she doesnt like it when i smoke..i was like well u shoulda been there when i was making tara laugh so hard she was gonna puke. yea...
everyone said i looked miserable..i was fucking tired and relaxed. which i havent felt in awhile. so i was enjoying it. for the most part it made my back feel relaxed..and usually it feels so tense and it aches all the time.
i thought i was gonna feel like shit today..but i dont really..like nothing hurts on me like it usually does after a night of drinking...but i guess thats cuz i wasnt being crazy..i just kinda sat there. when im high its like im more open to figuring out my problems..like i understand them. im not saying ima go back to being a pothead but...i feel better that i understand things a lil bit more clearly now.
oooh...like say for instance...the things u dont like about urself..for example say if ur a neat freak...then u check out someone elses room and see its all orderly and organized and u dont like the fact that ur a neat freak...so u end up not liking that person. u dont admit the fact that u dont like that about urself..u just see it as the way u are..but when u see someone else like that ur like ooh i dont like that shit.
i think i do that shit..
idk what i was thinking to come up with this but faith was talking and some how i got lost in my own thoughts.
oh man yesterday i was fucked up all day. me tara and faith smoked first...then we left faiths house later to go to nikkis house..where we drank and i came home at like 1:30. ashley drove me home. elysia kept saying i was no fun..cuz i started to get real tired cuz of smoking..and then eating something after it...then drinking...thats just a sleepy combo for me. she said she doesnt like it when i smoke..i was like well u shoulda been there when i was making tara laugh so hard she was gonna puke. yea...
everyone said i looked miserable..i was fucking tired and relaxed. which i havent felt in awhile. so i was enjoying it. for the most part it made my back feel relaxed..and usually it feels so tense and it aches all the time.
i thought i was gonna feel like shit today..but i dont really..like nothing hurts on me like it usually does after a night of drinking...but i guess thats cuz i wasnt being crazy..i just kinda sat there. when im high its like im more open to figuring out my problems..like i understand them. im not saying ima go back to being a pothead but...i feel better that i understand things a lil bit more clearly now.