My feelings of you are forever.
My latest song I'm in love with. Papa Roach-Forever.
Why? Parts of the song are a subtle remnder of the man I'm going to have to let go in September when he's deployed to Iraq. But it's not a reminder that makes me upset, just one that keeps me in touch with reality that I'm going to have to let him go. My minds way of preparing for it.
I'm also very thankful that I am not mary and scott. They are way too intense for me. Their relationship is ridiculous. The way they argue and fight. And the way they talk to eachother. Her more than him. But hey, it's none of my business what they do to eachother.
My boss's husband has about a year left to live. Part of the reason why I'm not leaving taco bell. And why I'm not going to quit anytime soon. She's like my mother and I want to be there at least to help her with work. One less stress off her mind. And trying to find a better job with the same benefits i have right now will be quite dfficult. Not that i havent looked, but it is.
My friend Mary really wants me to move to bellingham. And I came to the conclusion today after months of really thinking about it. Thinking about how different my life would be. And everything that comes with moving 2 hours away from the place I grew up in. Is that I dont want to leave. I dont want to move away from tacoma at all. As much as everyone complains about the weather and everything else, I love it here. And I dont ever really want to move. I dont want to move in with a couple whos engaged and getting married in a year. They need there own space and I want my own apartment. by myself. With no one else. Call that selfish, but thats what I wanted since I got a brain. Since I was younger and my parents were ridiculous. And livng here with my roomates is fne and everything, but I want my own place. Desperatly. And thats what I'm going to do. In August when my lease is done. i will have a year of rental history. Good rental history at that. I've only ever been late on my rent once. But under the circumstances, he understood.
Shane is one amazing man. It'll only be 3 months on the 15th, but I havent met somene like him who makes me be like this. I love him. I know I love him. And that doesnt bother me. I value our time more because we dont get to spend as much time together. He seems to be the only person able to mesh and work with my work schedule without bitching for an hour. He doesnt mind or care that I work at Taco Bell and doesnt persuade me to work anywhere else. he wants me to be happy. And he makes me happy. Our relationship, though short, is very healthy. We dont ever fight. And we dont argue. He listens to me and I listen to him. Were never mad at eachother. All in short, I'm really glad that I listened when people told me to let him come to me. I was trying so hard. The second i stopped looking he came to me. talk about some good luck.
Why? Parts of the song are a subtle remnder of the man I'm going to have to let go in September when he's deployed to Iraq. But it's not a reminder that makes me upset, just one that keeps me in touch with reality that I'm going to have to let him go. My minds way of preparing for it.
I'm also very thankful that I am not mary and scott. They are way too intense for me. Their relationship is ridiculous. The way they argue and fight. And the way they talk to eachother. Her more than him. But hey, it's none of my business what they do to eachother.
My boss's husband has about a year left to live. Part of the reason why I'm not leaving taco bell. And why I'm not going to quit anytime soon. She's like my mother and I want to be there at least to help her with work. One less stress off her mind. And trying to find a better job with the same benefits i have right now will be quite dfficult. Not that i havent looked, but it is.
My friend Mary really wants me to move to bellingham. And I came to the conclusion today after months of really thinking about it. Thinking about how different my life would be. And everything that comes with moving 2 hours away from the place I grew up in. Is that I dont want to leave. I dont want to move away from tacoma at all. As much as everyone complains about the weather and everything else, I love it here. And I dont ever really want to move. I dont want to move in with a couple whos engaged and getting married in a year. They need there own space and I want my own apartment. by myself. With no one else. Call that selfish, but thats what I wanted since I got a brain. Since I was younger and my parents were ridiculous. And livng here with my roomates is fne and everything, but I want my own place. Desperatly. And thats what I'm going to do. In August when my lease is done. i will have a year of rental history. Good rental history at that. I've only ever been late on my rent once. But under the circumstances, he understood.
Shane is one amazing man. It'll only be 3 months on the 15th, but I havent met somene like him who makes me be like this. I love him. I know I love him. And that doesnt bother me. I value our time more because we dont get to spend as much time together. He seems to be the only person able to mesh and work with my work schedule without bitching for an hour. He doesnt mind or care that I work at Taco Bell and doesnt persuade me to work anywhere else. he wants me to be happy. And he makes me happy. Our relationship, though short, is very healthy. We dont ever fight. And we dont argue. He listens to me and I listen to him. Were never mad at eachother. All in short, I'm really glad that I listened when people told me to let him come to me. I was trying so hard. The second i stopped looking he came to me. talk about some good luck.