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mann... i hate my life right now....i mean my brother is acting like my older sister.. man i hate my fucking sister man. to me shes doesnt even exsist..i mean when we were 7yrs my older sis left us n the family to be wit her boyfriend n she was still in high school.. i mean we took it really hard because we were used to someone beign there.. and for the longest time she wouldnt go and visist us cuz she was afraid what my dad will say, so finally she wil come lil by lil but liek werent used to her.. and liek now we grew up and she doesnt even want to spend time with us anymore and she wants to do is get drunk i mena she doesnt visist my mom that much anymore and like we thinks she has an athority oon us cuz shes our older sister but she doesnt.. and like we dont really care for her because she wasnt there i mena the only time she thought she really cared is when our grandpa passed and christmas.. and like shes alwasy saying no shes doesnt have any money but yet she has money to go buy $40 bottles of alchol, and liek she didnt even give us a birthday present last year n like she said that she had no money and she went to party at aks like what the fuck. i dunno but like to me shes just another person that just thinks for her self and not for anyone else, i mean soemtimes she even gets jealous of us because how my mom lets us go places that she never did and have party her at the house.. i mean were good ppl we belive in god we go to church and we are involved and she never was involved and she didnt give a crap what my parents thought and we do.. and like one tiem at a party her at my casa n parents werent hear yeah we had a few drinks but she brought this subject up the day before we were having a party for the jesuits thinkg that my mom will say no to whole party thing like she didnt want us to have fun, ..;...... and now chrissy came along in our life. and im glad she did.. and its kinda sad how we came to be great friends now.. i mean we wer friends before, bt a close friend of ours passed away in sept. and that brougth us closer and it was a reality to us of what we have in front of us.. and yeah since then us n chrissy r like very very close friends... i mena i even consider her as my sister.. because chrissy has been there for us i mean through the hard times and good times.. im very grateful lthat shes in my life right now..and last night me marisa chrissy n junior wen tto the hockey game it was awsome it was my first time and we wanted to go ice skating but my stupid brother said no cuz he wanted to go to hooters and be with his friends..i mean we didnt go to hooters.. but its like he didnt give a crap wut we wanted to do.. and i hate that...and last night marisa n me n junior got into a big argrument.. and like this morning my older sis decided to come by. what a surprised during breakfast.. and like we went to church and came back... and me n marisa were in the sala and we could hear my brother n my older sister talking about us and how we were actign and like i got pissed. and also the thing i hate about people is that they talk about going somwhere and goign to ate n like right in front of our faces.. man that is one thing that pissed me off.. and like they were all leaving and i told me brother that dont talk about us like were not fuckign hear and i started to cry... and hes like what and marisa was crying too .. amrisa said we dont want u hear just leave..i dunno but but i just hate my brother right now he was actign like lorena......and that just pissed me off........
i hate how the people you love the most , just dont give a crap!!!and they just backstab!!!and feels like they just broke ur heart into pieces!!!