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for anyone who wants to know. I got a tattoo on my back that says "live in love" my ultimate goal. its written in green (script) vines with cherry blossoms around it. I'm also working at Sole' now. Its on main street in williamsville. People tip way better out there and i will never work at a chain restaurant again.....for the rest of my life. Everyday i get tips that are like 25, 30, or 40 bucks (just for one table) its nice being appreciated monetarily for my hard work. I had my ass handed to me for years at fridays and then at Daves.....and people didn't tip shit. This week i'm working all seven days b/c i'm training on bar. Matt is the sous chef there. Maybe that was a bad idea? Everyone should come in and visit me........or call me b/c i told matt i need friends to hang out with......and have amber time. I'm sick of going out where his friends are and being matt's girlfriend. I need to be amber again. hence our relationship troubles........he fears this and thinks it means horrible things. guys always have that reaction to this issue. I'm not submissive. get used to it. I need to be recognized as Amber.
ps. i'm getting my masters in the spring probably for creative studies at buff state......but possibly special ed. i just need to figure out if i can get financial aid for my masters.......or where i can get a loan for graduate school.
ok...i love you.