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[alwayslastplace]

yah so I was cleaning my room today
and I found 14 razors. Is that crazy
or is it just me? I dont know why
but I kept them, I kept all of them.
Maybe if Im lucky I will forget where
they are again.

The scarey part was that, for a split
second.. or two...I missed it, and I
wanted to let it all out...again...

I'm losing it... I'm a fuck up.. a
fake and everything is completely
hopeless. How can I even think about
that shit again? I'm mad at myself
and Im scared for myself.. I need help,
still. I'm pathetic.