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ok, so right now i'm trying REALLY hard to be a good girlfriend. i'm working harder than EVER to make things perfect... but I can't help to feel... weird..
im wanting everything to go right and i'm giving it my damnest effort.. but the only thing that runs through my head is "anything is possible/accidents happen" type bullshit. its pissing me off, but then again, i wonder if i'm thinking realistically. i mean, i am 500 miles away. which isnt a lot, but at the same time, it feels like thousands.
this Jackie thing - it's really getting to me. and it just now hit me, i trust him, but i don't trust her. and that's where the problem lays. Sure, you can have a completely platonic relationship between males and females, but when the male and the female has already ONCE stepped that boundary into something sexual, then it becomes difficult to believe that it's platonic. he's been hanging out with her A LOT. i've been gone.. 4 days..and he's seen her at least 2 or 3 times since i've left. . .
im being a silly girl. i'm sorry matt.... you're perfect