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these last days have been crazy and weird. it's weird, not to have to go to school anymore, and deal with all of that. it's weird to get up whatever time, and the only constant thing in my life is work. that's the only thing i must answer too. that's crazy and eerie and perfect.
california, here i come. (: looking forward to it, my eyes wide open, ready to experience something completely different, completely crazy, and even more-so, completely out of the normal. things are looking. i'm not going to say looking good or looking bad, just there. and it's an ok there. things aren't perfect, and honestly, i don't think i'd want them perfect at this point and time. because perfect never lasts. you can have perfection for only a short while. because life and things like it are always changing. nothing is always staying the same. edit - two plus two is always going to equal four. which is constant, so i lied, that's always going to be the same. other than that, things in life - like, where i'm standing right now (figuratively and literally) and relationships and friendships and thoughts and feelings and the eternal question what do i want to eat - those are all going to change, consistantly.
i want what's right for who will actually give me the world.
no more looking for love. no more looking for love
in all the wrong places. or the wrong people.
or even both. because i don't need that.
i need to be happy. and i need to be self reliant, no i mean... katie reliant
self re-li-ant: adj. having the confidence in and exercising one's own powers or judgement.
ka-tie re-li-ant: adj. having the confidence in and exercising KATIE'S own powers and judgement.
but i'm not going to sit here and say that i'm specifically not wanting to date anyone. just that i'm not going out, prawling the world, looking for that person. let them come to me. and when they do, i'll definitely be ready. until then, i'm good.
and it's off to work, we go.
Papa Roach - "Scars"
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is, that I care too much.
And my scars remind me that past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
I'm drunk and I'm feeling down,
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed 'cause you came around
Why don't you just go home?
'Cause you channeled all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is..
I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassion's in my nature
Tonight is our last stand
I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You should've never come here
Why don't you just go home?
'Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself
I can't help you fix yourself
But atleast I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But atleast I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life.
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
And my weakness is that I care too much
And out scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open, just to feel.
california, here i come. (: looking forward to it, my eyes wide open, ready to experience something completely different, completely crazy, and even more-so, completely out of the normal. things are looking. i'm not going to say looking good or looking bad, just there. and it's an ok there. things aren't perfect, and honestly, i don't think i'd want them perfect at this point and time. because perfect never lasts. you can have perfection for only a short while. because life and things like it are always changing. nothing is always staying the same. edit - two plus two is always going to equal four. which is constant, so i lied, that's always going to be the same. other than that, things in life - like, where i'm standing right now (figuratively and literally) and relationships and friendships and thoughts and feelings and the eternal question what do i want to eat - those are all going to change, consistantly.
i want what's right for who will actually give me the world.
no more looking for love. no more looking for love
in all the wrong places. or the wrong people.
or even both. because i don't need that.
i need to be happy. and i need to be self reliant, no i mean... katie reliant
self re-li-ant: adj. having the confidence in and exercising one's own powers or judgement.
ka-tie re-li-ant: adj. having the confidence in and exercising KATIE'S own powers and judgement.
but i'm not going to sit here and say that i'm specifically not wanting to date anyone. just that i'm not going out, prawling the world, looking for that person. let them come to me. and when they do, i'll definitely be ready. until then, i'm good.
and it's off to work, we go.
Papa Roach - "Scars"
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is, that I care too much.
And my scars remind me that past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
I'm drunk and I'm feeling down,
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed 'cause you came around
Why don't you just go home?
'Cause you channeled all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is..
I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassion's in my nature
Tonight is our last stand
I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You should've never come here
Why don't you just go home?
'Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself
I can't help you fix yourself
But atleast I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But atleast I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life.
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
And my weakness is that I care too much
And out scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open, just to feel.