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I don't know anything anymore... I am the dumbest most immature worthless human being on the face of the planet.... and I know its true.
For starters, I am an addict... Yeah, I am finally admitting it. I have audio-visual addiction, basically I can't tear myself away from computer, video games, or movies... I know there is more to life than the things that I have been living, but I just can't shake it... You may laugh, but its as hard to break the cycle as anything else that you could be addicted to.... except there are no chemicals.... but I bet your brain releases some sort of enzyme that says "Woot! a glowing screen!" I don't know what I would give to be normal. I mean, I have been told to lay off, but I can't do it................ Sometimes I think all I need is.... nevermind.
Kelly's and my two year aniversery was basically screwed up again because of Christmas time.... I think we had poor planning, but who knows... I promised I would take her to see Kong and to eat out some place nice... and I do have some really good christmas ideas.... If I could get off my ass and do something that doesn't involve a screen. What is wrong with me?
In other news, the play went all right... It went so right that Kayla asked me personally to direct an upcoming production, because we basically flew solo after Mike hurt himself and she blames its success on me. It wasn't me though, I promise. It was everyone else, you know who you are.
Christmas time is rough for me, and I think that I am going to have to deal with it. I think it is also compounded with the fact that I am isolated from my support group (my friends), and all I am left with are my thoughts...
and my video games.
I wish you were here. I wish that you would just tell me things were going to get better... I wish that you would come and see me and we could forget everything.... and start over new....
For starters, I am an addict... Yeah, I am finally admitting it. I have audio-visual addiction, basically I can't tear myself away from computer, video games, or movies... I know there is more to life than the things that I have been living, but I just can't shake it... You may laugh, but its as hard to break the cycle as anything else that you could be addicted to.... except there are no chemicals.... but I bet your brain releases some sort of enzyme that says "Woot! a glowing screen!" I don't know what I would give to be normal. I mean, I have been told to lay off, but I can't do it................ Sometimes I think all I need is.... nevermind.
Kelly's and my two year aniversery was basically screwed up again because of Christmas time.... I think we had poor planning, but who knows... I promised I would take her to see Kong and to eat out some place nice... and I do have some really good christmas ideas.... If I could get off my ass and do something that doesn't involve a screen. What is wrong with me?
In other news, the play went all right... It went so right that Kayla asked me personally to direct an upcoming production, because we basically flew solo after Mike hurt himself and she blames its success on me. It wasn't me though, I promise. It was everyone else, you know who you are.
Christmas time is rough for me, and I think that I am going to have to deal with it. I think it is also compounded with the fact that I am isolated from my support group (my friends), and all I am left with are my thoughts...
and my video games.
I wish you were here. I wish that you would just tell me things were going to get better... I wish that you would come and see me and we could forget everything.... and start over new....