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Like slow spinning redemption i stayed up until 3 thinking on everything...on who i was...and how i turned out to be the ont thing i never wnated to be...a "player" and as much as i hate to admit it i am....i am so selfish on the fact trhat i dont care what happends i know i should do it yet i still do it....which makes me even worse then a person who did it with out even knowing...so i just stayed up writing, writing everything i had in mind....i wrote every gril i ever hurt in some way a letter telling them i was sorry...and if u are not one of those who i wrote one to its ok cuz i ended up shreading them...becuase i know ita letter can not fix a broken heaty but yet i have to tell them in person i am sorry and that deep down inside i never meant to do these things to them...and i have change now well atleast i hope i do...and i cant forse u to forgive me becuase i have yet not been able to forgive myslef for everything i have caused but i hope u guys can find in in your heart to forgive me...until a few days ago i failed to see why i didn't have a gf and why girls always broke my heart when in reality it is all based on the felosofy of "you get what u deserve" maybe this is karma. (thanks yalline)i got heart broken over spring break and with out knowing it was the exact same thing i did to another girl except it was the other way around. well thats it i guess i know this like a very emo entry but i have to say what i feel before i end up hurting any more poeple. <3