Some people want it all
Last week is so different from today. Today it seems like next year is going to be like the last two. I want to leave here and be with Clay, I dont care where...anywhere but here. He told me that he couldnt do another year of this and he wanted me to come out so we could be in eachothers lives again. And I want that too, it may seem dumb but I want to go to his games and I dont want to cry all the time because I feel so alone. He talked to his coaches about it and since then he has been treating me so different. I dont know what it is exactly, just seems like he doesnt care if I stay or go. How could he not care when last week he was so set on it. He says they opened his eyes because if we were to get in a fight it could prevent him from doing well at a game. So once again basketball is more important than me. But if I said that to him he would say its only important so we can have a good life. How can WE have a good life when I can never be a part of it? He is planning on playing after college. Do i have to stay away then too? Why will it be so much different then? All I know is Im leaving next year. Dont know where to but Im gone.