why can't you just use my name jacinda? say this to my face? you have my number, talk to me, instead of your livejournal. why is it such a big fucking deal? this is stupid. since when am I still lying? I haven't lied about anything.
why don't you stop being so self-absorbed and thinking everything i say about me not liking straight edge is always about you. maybe it's in the direction of every elitist straight edge asshole that talks down on people for even smoking. i'm tired of straight edge. it's bullshit and no one cares whether you're straight edge or not. you being in the general, there. i don't understand why people have to be judged on the fact that they drink or don't drink or any of straight edge's 'rules'. i have straight edge friends. but they don't always talk about it or brag, or care that i'm not straight edge. it shouldn't have to matter. that's bullshit.
and i agree, i dont think anyones better than anyone else. no one has to be judged. people will be people, let them be. and it doesn't matter. what i've been writing about has been not at that, but the fact that you and mikey and whoever else are putting me into a label that i'm not. and then hating me for it.
i can understand though if you think i'm dumb or something because i smoked three times then stopped and reclaimed, whatever, that whole thing. but i'm just jeneca. and we're only human.
well, people are always going to be judged. that's how the world works. like no one can be completely open minded. i fuckin' hate when people say that. no one's completely open minded if they did, they'd just agree with everything all the time, right? yes. well, you've put most of us down for doing what we're doing. you got on me for smoking. you got on nikki. yes, i know nikki didn't do the most 'noble' thing by totally denouncing straight edge or whatever. but who cares? it was her choice and it shouldn't matter to anyone else. how are we putting you into a label that you're not? you're straight edge, are you not? that's the only thing we've really 'labeled' you as so i don't know what you mean there
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well jacinda, we have never been friend nor liked each other, but for once, i finally agree with you. i broke edge, because edge wasnt doing anything for me. &i to can second that the friends i have now who smoke&drink make my life a lot better, everything is chill. &there is no drama. the last thing i appreciated was being attacked by jeneca, calling me a dumbass for not wanting the title anymore. it's my life, i'll do what i want. i dont care if you dont like me for it either. &you go ahead and smoke all you want jacinda, just quit when youre like 25 or something..
i don't really have a problem with you anymore. you don't really bother me anymore. i've become so much more laid back with people and shit since i started smoking and stuff more. that's why i do it more. but yeah, hanging out with them brings pretty much no drama. yeah, people bitch but everyone just gets over it. ohhh, i'll quit sometime. when i'm like 25. when i don't have to deal with this kind of bullshit anymore and i won't need it. actually probably not. quit that is. hah.
nikki. i didn't mean to attack you. i don't think you're dumb or stupid for not being edge anymore. i could care less. the only thing that got to me was that you don't even respect it. that's cool and all, do what you want, i just wondered about what made you change your mind all the sudden. it was kind of like a betrayal? almost? i dunno. i already got my mindless bitching out. it was a little harsher than i had intended it to be though, and i am sorry, i didn't mean to jump all over your case. there was a lot going on around me more irritating than not when i was writing to you. and when i get frustrated, especially when i write, a lot comes out like that. i'm sure you can see that in my journal
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i dont remember ever getting on you for smoking, i never said anything bad about it i'm quite positive. i don't care if you smoke? i don't care what yo do jacinda, i don't care what anyone does. i am edge for myself and for god and no one else. i don't think anyone's weak for smoking, drinking, and partying. if someone wants to have a good time, and that's what their definitition of a good time, i say, go at it
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you got on me for smoking cigarettes. you told me i was stupid and kept questioning it. like you said, it doesn't matter if i smoke or not. i don't care how gross it is or how cancerous. the more cancer the better. whatever, i'm not worried about death in any sense that's why i don't care about not being edge. the sooner i die the better who wants to be old anyway
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i can understand though if you think i'm dumb or something because i smoked three times then stopped and reclaimed, whatever, that whole thing. but i'm just jeneca. and we're only human.
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well jacinda, we have never been friend nor liked each other, but for once, i finally agree with you.
i broke edge, because edge wasnt doing anything for me.
&i to can second that the friends i have now who smoke&drink make my life a lot better, everything is chill. &there is no drama.
the last thing i appreciated was being attacked by jeneca, calling me a dumbass for not wanting the title anymore. it's my life, i'll do what i want. i dont care if you dont like me for it either.
&you go ahead and smoke all you want jacinda, just quit when youre like 25 or something..
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but yeah, hanging out with them brings pretty much no drama. yeah, people bitch but everyone just gets over it.
ohhh, i'll quit sometime. when i'm like 25. when i don't have to deal with this kind of bullshit anymore and i won't need it.
actually probably not. quit that is. hah.
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hey jacinda, you made this shit anonoymus, gracias friend, gracias.
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