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okay well instead of making everybodys friday night all the juicier with me bullshit ill just post it here. i'm not causing a scene but i just dont even feel like bothering anybody with this shit anymore. it has gone on for long enough and it is literally the same shit over and over again. honestly you are so fucking selfish. like you are a good boyfriend but when you pull this shit it is so fucking selfish. i doubt anybody remembers i still have this thing but this still is a private matter but i have tried to reach out and looks like you don't give a shit. and this time i don't feel like holding all my feelings inside for your benefit. i tried to act like this shit didn't bother me last time just so you wouldn't feel guilty, just so things wouldn't be damage, but now i don't care i am mad and so disapointed in you and it has just happened too many times at this point. it is embaressing the way you make these brash decisions. i really feel like you need to go to a doctor, also i feel like i'm loosing my best friend so i feel even worse. your text you sent me last night made no sense. why wouldnt you just call me back. like honestly how fucking impersonal. if you bother checking this maybe you still care or maybe your laughing with your friends who knows. i dont feel like i know you right now.