Working
So i have been a working fool this week. Not too much fun. Just equals me really tired and a little annoyed all the time. So im at work now and figured i would kill some time and post, you know the whole get back to livejournal thing.
It's werid how i dont see myself as the same person i was 5 years ago. i feel like i am totally different, but in a good way. i am way more secure with myself, i like myself. But looking back i have lost some pretty great friends. Its werid that i like myself more now but it seems that less people like me. I have a few close friends and a lot of loose friends and a huge amount of people i used to be friends with. Was is because i changed, or they changed? or the combo of both changes. I'm just not sure anymore. Even though i feel so lonely most of the time i dont feel comfortable picking up the phone and calling someone because im afraid of the rejection. I also feel like i have closed myself off to having close friends that i can be with ALL the time because i dont want to loose it again.
Anyways... work is bleh. 45 mins til i go home and finish Grey's. Then i will be back at 645. got to go...people to check in.
It's werid how i dont see myself as the same person i was 5 years ago. i feel like i am totally different, but in a good way. i am way more secure with myself, i like myself. But looking back i have lost some pretty great friends. Its werid that i like myself more now but it seems that less people like me. I have a few close friends and a lot of loose friends and a huge amount of people i used to be friends with. Was is because i changed, or they changed? or the combo of both changes. I'm just not sure anymore. Even though i feel so lonely most of the time i dont feel comfortable picking up the phone and calling someone because im afraid of the rejection. I also feel like i have closed myself off to having close friends that i can be with ALL the time because i dont want to loose it again.
Anyways... work is bleh. 45 mins til i go home and finish Grey's. Then i will be back at 645. got to go...people to check in.