the end of an era
these past three weeks have been...interesting. i'm not lying. i got what we thought was food poisoning over thanksgiving break, but it turned out to be a bacterial infection that developed a complication... i have eaten nothing but the most bland food for the past three weeks; i actually went about three days where i didn't eat solid food at all, only drank liquid. i lost fifteen pounds in two weeks, my clothes are falling off of me. but i'm slowly improving through the help of modern medicine and lots and lots of prayers.
today marks the end of an era. i moved out of my apartment and into a new one; i've never moved in the middle of the year before, and i've always lived with maren, ever since we started college. but here i am, venturing out on my own. it is the weirdest thing i think i've ever done. i look around my room now and realize that it soon will not be mine. soon, i will be going to a different apartment, with different people, calling it home. my roommate and best friend is leaving utah state and going on a mission. it will be so weird not to fall asleep talking to her, not to plan crazy adventures with her, not to have her around when i'm panicking about the tiniest details. life is changing. i turn 21 in less than two months. i'm starting a professional career; i'm trying to become a professor, and i'm working on getting a research grant for folklore, i'm working on honors contracts, i'm a TA for a class.... it's so weird to wake up one day, look in the mirror and say to yourself, "i am an adult." i still can't grasp it. i still feel like a kid, especially since i've been sick; i talked to my mom about four times a day while i was really bad.
i'm coming home on monday. i haven't even set foot in the south since august, and then only for about five days. i'm actually planning on moving home for the summer; i'm out of money, and i might be doing research in the south. i'm going to africa in may; i'm going to be in kenya for 17 days building a school. i cannot describe my excitement. i'm living my dreams, i'm solidifying who i am, and i'm trying not to die in the process. life is good. i love you all, and i'll see a lot of you so soon!
today marks the end of an era. i moved out of my apartment and into a new one; i've never moved in the middle of the year before, and i've always lived with maren, ever since we started college. but here i am, venturing out on my own. it is the weirdest thing i think i've ever done. i look around my room now and realize that it soon will not be mine. soon, i will be going to a different apartment, with different people, calling it home. my roommate and best friend is leaving utah state and going on a mission. it will be so weird not to fall asleep talking to her, not to plan crazy adventures with her, not to have her around when i'm panicking about the tiniest details. life is changing. i turn 21 in less than two months. i'm starting a professional career; i'm trying to become a professor, and i'm working on getting a research grant for folklore, i'm working on honors contracts, i'm a TA for a class.... it's so weird to wake up one day, look in the mirror and say to yourself, "i am an adult." i still can't grasp it. i still feel like a kid, especially since i've been sick; i talked to my mom about four times a day while i was really bad.
i'm coming home on monday. i haven't even set foot in the south since august, and then only for about five days. i'm actually planning on moving home for the summer; i'm out of money, and i might be doing research in the south. i'm going to africa in may; i'm going to be in kenya for 17 days building a school. i cannot describe my excitement. i'm living my dreams, i'm solidifying who i am, and i'm trying not to die in the process. life is good. i love you all, and i'll see a lot of you so soon!