"I feel like glass, when I break.. I shatter" (Adam)
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More arguing with my dad... my heart is in a million pieces... when I fight with him it's just random stupid stuff... some of it comes from deep in me.. and some of it is things that I don't even care about... I'm so glad my dad finally knows that the heart of my problem.... is that I'm still in love with Benny... when my dad finally said it... I was already crying... but I just broke down and wept... and my daddy held me... and I felt so naked... vulnerable... that I came face to face with my heartache... and someone else saw it with me... I've cried myself to sleep hundreds of times... no one's ever heard... never been there to hold me like I needed so bad... to hear my dad say that he told me not to fall for him... and to hear him say finally that I guess sometimes you just can't help it made me feel a little better.... I can't tell my heart not to love him anymore than I can tell it to quit beating... I love him with a passionate love... I can't even get over his smile let alone everything he's meant to me in the last two years.... God I wish I knew what was going on with him... it destroys me inside and out to know that he can't want me.... it hurts so much.... shadi... my prayers are with you... and I pray yours are with me as well...
More arguing with my dad... my heart is in a million pieces... when I fight with him it's just random stupid stuff... some of it comes from deep in me.. and some of it is things that I don't even care about... I'm so glad my dad finally knows that the heart of my problem.... is that I'm still in love with Benny... when my dad finally said it... I was already crying... but I just broke down and wept... and my daddy held me... and I felt so naked... vulnerable... that I came face to face with my heartache... and someone else saw it with me... I've cried myself to sleep hundreds of times... no one's ever heard... never been there to hold me like I needed so bad... to hear my dad say that he told me not to fall for him... and to hear him say finally that I guess sometimes you just can't help it made me feel a little better.... I can't tell my heart not to love him anymore than I can tell it to quit beating... I love him with a passionate love... I can't even get over his smile let alone everything he's meant to me in the last two years.... God I wish I knew what was going on with him... it destroys me inside and out to know that he can't want me.... it hurts so much.... shadi... my prayers are with you... and I pray yours are with me as well...