-disregard this-
Just thought I'd pop by and say that I'm finally home after 10 days in that place.
So I'm going to be random really quick.
Some cunt on lj took me off of her friends list while I was gone.
Oh, I'm sorry I couldn't reply to all of your entries while I was tied up to a hospital bed.
I do plan on replying to your entires though, once I feel better. Not sure when that will be, but don't hate me just because I don't comment. I do read stuff.
All of your wishes and comments in my last couple of posts on here helped a lot.
Hugs and gnomes to all of you for that.
It always helps to know that someone is out there, as lame as it may sound.
I looked in the mirror today and I look older.
I don't know if it was some emo moment, or what. My eyes look older and my face looks worn.
I still can't believe I was in the fucking hospital, and now I'm home.
It's like wtf times infinity.
I hope I can become the old AA again, now that we've sort of solved my problem.
I want to be free.
Right now I'm still healing, I have to go back to denver in 2 weeks to get checked out and have the staples taken out of my back.
For 6 weeks I have to have antibiotics through this central-line type broviac tube in my chest. Three times a day. 6am, 2pm, 10pm. It's rough but it better work and fight my infection. After that i'll be on long-term antibiotics orally. There's so many risks with the heavy medicine I'm taking, I'm trying to ignore it like Gizmo would. However that may be. I think giz would enjoy nurses coming in and taking care of him during those hours. I don't though and thankfully my dad will learn how to take care of the whole iv bullshit-thing/whatever.com wtf
wtf was i talking about? I'm so tired i'm like ifufckfuckfucikfnfkngjf fuck. . fuck. .dot.
I have decided that if I survive all of this bullshit, when I see Blink 182 I will meet them and that is final. Because I said so. Fucking give me some sort of gift for this crap. The stuffed tiger isn't enough. I feel like a beat up...... pineapple.
I've been eating so much pineapple it's like it pops up in whatever I talk about.
Alright, the percocet or however the fuck you spell it is getting to me. I wish I had some of that valium too.
Thank you all so much for being concerned, I <3 you all and appreciate everything.
I still don't know wtf I've been trying to say. wtf.
narcotics can fuck you up.
So maybe I'll say more in depth things when I'm sane.
for now, = try to go to bed and try to sleep with staples in back and itchy body
wtf
hitler would be like crying right now if he were me
poem time:
as the percocet settles
i weep
for i know
soon i will sleep
and dream of you
your gorgeous
pineapple
sob
end
Now. you know I am insane.
I ALMOST FORGOT to add
thestoryofagirl is flying out to see me soon
and it will be cool
because we will hang out and eat nuts with chocolate together
goodnight for me
So I'm going to be random really quick.
Some cunt on lj took me off of her friends list while I was gone.
Oh, I'm sorry I couldn't reply to all of your entries while I was tied up to a hospital bed.
I do plan on replying to your entires though, once I feel better. Not sure when that will be, but don't hate me just because I don't comment. I do read stuff.
All of your wishes and comments in my last couple of posts on here helped a lot.
Hugs and gnomes to all of you for that.
It always helps to know that someone is out there, as lame as it may sound.
I looked in the mirror today and I look older.
I don't know if it was some emo moment, or what. My eyes look older and my face looks worn.
I still can't believe I was in the fucking hospital, and now I'm home.
It's like wtf times infinity.
I hope I can become the old AA again, now that we've sort of solved my problem.
I want to be free.
Right now I'm still healing, I have to go back to denver in 2 weeks to get checked out and have the staples taken out of my back.
For 6 weeks I have to have antibiotics through this central-line type broviac tube in my chest. Three times a day. 6am, 2pm, 10pm. It's rough but it better work and fight my infection. After that i'll be on long-term antibiotics orally. There's so many risks with the heavy medicine I'm taking, I'm trying to ignore it like Gizmo would. However that may be. I think giz would enjoy nurses coming in and taking care of him during those hours. I don't though and thankfully my dad will learn how to take care of the whole iv bullshit-thing/whatever.com wtf
wtf was i talking about? I'm so tired i'm like ifufckfuckfucikfnfkngjf fuck. . fuck. .dot.
I have decided that if I survive all of this bullshit, when I see Blink 182 I will meet them and that is final. Because I said so. Fucking give me some sort of gift for this crap. The stuffed tiger isn't enough. I feel like a beat up...... pineapple.
I've been eating so much pineapple it's like it pops up in whatever I talk about.
Alright, the percocet or however the fuck you spell it is getting to me. I wish I had some of that valium too.
Thank you all so much for being concerned, I <3 you all and appreciate everything.
I still don't know wtf I've been trying to say. wtf.
narcotics can fuck you up.
So maybe I'll say more in depth things when I'm sane.
for now, = try to go to bed and try to sleep with staples in back and itchy body
wtf
hitler would be like crying right now if he were me
poem time:
as the percocet settles
i weep
for i know
soon i will sleep
and dream of you
your gorgeous
pineapple
sob
end
Now. you know I am insane.
I ALMOST FORGOT to add
thestoryofagirl is flying out to see me soon
and it will be cool
because we will hang out and eat nuts with chocolate together
goodnight for me