Life as we know it
Alriiiiiighty...the only reason i find myself doing this is becuase at the moment ben is at band, and no one is around, and my parents are in mexico and i was at work or id be at the game....
School...well it sucks...took too many classes for a senior year btu i think its preparing me for college...but ew....ive ben thinking about southern, central, sacred heart, umm bridgeport i dont know really i know i want to be a math teacher...so yea thats what im goin for...calculus i received a 54 on my first test...yes i almost cried....mentally i feel unstable haha...its kinda hard for me right now to handle everything...and inside i think im scared, i can not afford to do bad in any of my classes, its jsut not something i do...i dont know..and this half the year i have no study halls so YUCK that sucks majorly!! but second half its better...driving school is progressing...i prolly wont have my liscense till like january or so..whatever!! but then im 18 ibn march so none of the rules apply to me....you know what i hate..i feel like im making myself want to rush life along jsut so i can make it through quicker....then powderpuff starts kinnnnda soon and ill be doing that ontop of all my school work which is alot then working till 8 at night..then driving school here and there and then oh yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i have a boyfriend haha........well i havent seen ben since sunday,it is now friday night, and i prolly wont see him this weekend either cuz my parents are going away so im being shipped off to everyone in my family to watch us but whatever.....i miss ben..he calms me down, its my down time when i dont think about my homework or worry about life.........but it seems like i dont have time to sit and miss him....im always doing SOMETHING. and i hate ittttttttttt hate it....i love him, and i just missssss him....we went to Mass. last sunday..and i was telling heather how i love ben yes....and whne im with him we know we love eachother but like that sunday everytime i looked at him i would think of how im so in love with him....and i love being like that because it lets me know that we continue to grow together....oh well i love ben and illl leave that alone....hmm what else...im starting a new diet, one that will make me die when im prolly 50 but ya know whatever....i jsut want an evening where i can sit home and watch a movie and all be damned thats what im gonna go do right now i think...well i think ima watch tv cuz i dont wanna go downstairs to get a movie haha yes my feet are tired of walking allll day... much love and later days <3